letsfly

packin' up.

2009-01-30T07:22:00.000-08:00

I'm not gonna be using this anymore
so here's Goodbye.

Still with my lj though.
May we meet again, soon?

Takecare peeeps.

Memories, they're sweet, yes?
Yet sometimes, we're better of without em'
Especially if they're makin ya all sad,
then maybe we've gotta let go.
For its best, like that.

time oh time.

2009-01-29T23:14:00.000-08:00

So much to blog about,

BUT SO LITTLE TIME.

Maybe I ...............

2009-01-22T22:11:00.000-08:00

Maybe I don't have the time for this anymore):

Wait.

Maybe I don't even wanna write here no more.

Maybe I feel like deleting this dead decaying blog.

Maybe I am so screwed for Idk what.

Maybe I'm just dissapointed.

For reasons Idk myself.

Maybe its just the weather.

Maybe I shouldn't have bothered writing this at all.

Maybe you shouldn't have bother to read at all.

Maybe, just maybe.

tataaa for now.

2009-01-07T13:17:00.000-08:00

Picture credits to:deserter@deviantart

Just finished packing my bag.
Will be away for some time now.
Hockey camp this Thursday.
And i'm going off to my aunt's for tonight.
You know I wish I could be there.
That statement, I have repeat too many times now.
One things for sure, i'm looking forward to camp.
Cause I miss the girls, especially the fat one.
And I miss Tasvita Kassey Kalleichelven.
Aisyah and Chandini toooo.
):

See ya soon peeps.
Meantime, takecare.
(:

Its 3rd January 2009 and we're turning 6 years and a day old baby! <3

2009-01-06T17:16:00.000-08:00

On the 3rd day of 2009, 4 girls decided that it was time they went somewhere seen it has been one-hella-long-time since they last met. The venue of the day was Hort Park!

But but but, they were all so so hungry that they decided to stop by the irresistable Ramen Ten for lunch! Yummy food, here we come!

Lunch @ Ramen Ten

Red is the love love love.

Solo shots!

Sweet Aisyah.

Pretty Tasvita.
Bubbly Chandini.

I pick you, tom yum chicken cutlet Ramen!

Awww, just look at tas's dimples!

Poly students have golden hair.

JC students have black hair. HAHA

(and apparently, they get a little crazy whn waiting for food)

While waiting for our food, we ordered more food.

Aisyah's teriyaki chicken.

Tasvita's Kara..ge chicken.

Chandini's chicken cutlet.

Tom yum chicken cutlet for me!

ice mountain + bendy straws is all we need(:

Peekchas taken @ national geographic, the shop that looked like a musuem.

Hort Park, here we come!

" Ehh, where are we going people?"

"Wait wait. Check map 1st."

Aisyah so sweeet.

This got me laughing non stop. TAKE CARE AH!

Our trademark!

Tasvita recycles cans.

Aisyah recycles plastics.

Chandini recycles papers.

Fazee ... ? ):

"Ok, let's stop for a photo girls!"

Check out the split, super unglam. TEEHEE.

Why the shy faces anybody?

They wanted to do the pouty face,

but I couldn't and ended up laughing instead.

Ahhh, finally a decent shot.

Aren't they the sweetest thing?

My 3 lovely lunas!

Our mini-picnic. Apple juice!

Solo shots!

Chandini didn't notice tas leg hanging beside her at first.

Bubbly and blur! Oops.

Chameleon!

Hot sassy momma!

Camel.

Aisyah aisyah.

Then they wandered off to i wonder where. Tsk.

Chandini's mtv shot.
Aisyah's mtv shot.

super unglam moments.

Then we had our random blues):

But we're back to our wacky selves soon after(:

What's fatter than a cow? HAHAHA.

Ants ants!

1)Awww, you cute little thing come here.

2) Lemme do your hair for ya.

CHANDINI, WHY YOU LIKE SO SCARED LIDDAAAAT?

Timer all set(:

The fountain had 4 chairs, just nice(:

While we were walking home ...

Chandini realised that there was a paparazi following us.

Look at that angry face. FIERCE.

I tried replicating the little girl .. but her mum noticed.

faved pic of the day(:

3rd january 2009 marks 6 years 1 day of friendship.

I'm so happy girls, really am.

Girls, its amazing how far we've come.

I love you three.

And when I say I love you,

I really do.

" That's all folks! " (I'm still trying hard on that pouty face)

AND HEY. I'M NOT USELESS.

I have a no smoking sign on my lid kay.

Go green, stop the smoking.

takecare peeps(:

A sweet preview.

2009-01-05T11:16:00.000-08:00

I'll update pretty soon.
(:

Meantime, I love you girls.
Yes the three of you up there!
Always will kay?
<3>

Its already 2009.

2009-01-04T00:16:00.000-08:00

Picture credits to: fulltimelover@deviantart

As the motorcycle drove along the pavement,

I kept very quiet.

His little speech kept playing in my mind.

Was I really that selfish?

I kept asking myself.

I couldnt't help biting my lips, so hard.

Just to stop them tears from falling.

But I figured he wouldn't see.

No one would.

And so the wind wiped them away.

" Just be mentally prepared. "

And what was I to say?

All this while, I've been too caught up,

with my own life.

My own social circle.

I chose to cling on to those who I knew would do fine without me.

I was always too busy.

When I should have been busy studying.

When I should have been busy doing something else.

Yet I neglected thoose who were always there.

For me.

So I'll do my part now.

God, I beg of you to give me the strength.

To lead me in making the right decisions,

and to give me the power to fight the wrong ones.

And to guide me, in every other thing that I do.

I seek your guidance.

Only yours.

And to you, I ask for forgiveness.

For the many wrongs that i've done,

with or without knowledge.

Amin.

I'll do my part now.

And the only thing I ask for is your blessings.

Well as they say, cherish the moment, seize the day.

Well hey, its already 2009.

Take my hands, we'll sing em' sorrows away.

2009-01-03T02:05:00.000-08:00

Pictures credits to: Neenah 1111 @deviantart

I greeted you with a smile, all excited I was.

" Look at my new skin ", I told you.

You looked at me, with thoose droopy eyes,

then you walked away, with the faintest of smiles.

Stared hopelessly at your back. Is that you?

My once-bestfriend. Playmate, cycling buddy.

As you started talking, your voice started cracking.

Then, tears started rolling down.

I didn't, rather I couldn't see them.

But I could feel your pain, just this once.

I've made a mistake, I failed to see who you truly are deep down.

I'm sorry, to know what you're going through now.

I really am.

I looked up at you, as I lay close.

And I saw them, sadness in your eyes.

You looked away, somewhere far away.

Tears, they rolled off my cheeks.

How could I not know?'

I watched as you stood still.

You seemed lost.

Lost in your own thoughts.

Afraid, I was.

I held your hand, please know that I'm here.

We'll go through this together.

I need you, we all do.

Dear Allah, please help us stay strong.

Let's start fresh, take it from the top now(:

2009-01-01T02:52:00.000-08:00

Well, here it is.
" 2009 "

Happy new year?
Proper update later, prolly at night.
(:

Time to hit the pillows.

Its a brothersheep birthday! (:

2008-12-15T02:07:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRYAN(:
1 year 1 month 1 day after me eh?

HELLO,
I'm back.

Looking forward to today.
CSE PROPOSAL DEADLINE THOUGH):

Updates, coming soon.
(:

Hello and goodbye.

2008-12-10T01:42:00.000-08:00

" I'm back, alive baby alive! "

20th November 2008, sentosa date with loveliest clown.

Been pretty busy lately.
Catching up,
with schoolwork.
NOT!

Currently working on a new skin.
A proper update,
soon maybe.
(:

Meantime,
All the single ladies, put em' hands up!
woah oh oh oh oh oh
* All together now *
HAHAHA.

Bet tas that camel will be wth-ing reading this.
Thanks for Sunday & today babe(:

I love you, goodbye.

2008-11-26T09:25:00.000-08:00

credits to Cristosea@deviantart.com

Had an early morning today, filled with hugs and more hugs.
Rather sad, my family won't be sending me off ):
Even my brother gave me a hug before he left for work.
And so we said hello to the tears.
Momsie dropped me a message.
I have the most adorable mum in the whole wide world,most wonderful too.
I'm gonna miss em' family.
):

I'm gonna miss my super bibik.
I'm gonna miss the 3 lovely lunas.
I'm gonna miss FFFF.
I'm gonna miss my brothersheeps.
I'm gonna miss you,
whoever you may be.

Will y'all miss me too?
Takecare, see you.
Soon?

Dearest clown, I'm sorry I can't be here for you at this point of time. I know life has been very demanding on you lately. But hey, I'll always keep you in my prayers wherever I go. And hopefully, there'll be good news when I'm back yea? You should be enjoying in chalet later, damn I miss you already. Here's the Lemon Tree song for you.

Something tells me, that yesterday was just...
I miss yesterday.

now where's the call you promised?

friends, oh aren't they the sweetest thing one can ask for?

2008-11-23T02:25:00.000-08:00

This week has truly been the week filled with ups and downs. Fortunately, the ups = the downs.

To begin with, as soon as I posted my previous post, which was Tuesday morning. My sister came asking me whether I wanted to accompany her to the place-for-sick-people;hospital. My dearest brother was under observation. Was quite panicky, this is the first time ever since we were in primary school. So off we went. And they left me @ the hospital, yes, alone for the next 7 hours. Quite sad actually, I didn't know what to do. Wait? Should I take a little peek at him? Well sitting at the waiting area did got me thinking, way too much. Flashbacks, before falling asleep. I could have gotten a frost bite, thanks to the vvvvvv.low temperature.

But you know what? Somehow, I got closer to my brother again. Like yay! He bought prata for me for our lunch. And guess what, we had cooking session in the wee hours, cooking our favourite fried rice and nuggets. And there were music sessions too. Just like the good old days uh. I am thankful,happy that he's alright noe. Doing way way better. Let's just hope things stay this way, insyaAllah(:

So Wednesday, things got a weeeee bit better for me. You want to know why? Because pitch training was the bombbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbs. Being so so very smart, most of the girls didnt bring our change of clothes for training. So guess what our reactions were when coach kept training despite the heavy heavy rain? Crazy or what? But boy didn't we have fun? We were like leaking everywhere. Can squeeze water seh! Happy times. Sausage roll!
(:

The day ended on a sad note though. I'm just utterly dissapointed, speechless by whatever that has been happening. Fortunately, the brilliant plan of going to sentosa with lovely clown, tas, hit me. And yeaaap, we were off to sentosa the next day!

Every date with this special clown of mine is indeed memorable. Thank god the day was so so sunny, with no no rain. Well, this outing is overdued, like its almost been a year yea tas? Its amazing how she never fails to brighten my day, even though she's not having the best of times herself(: Thank you, you clown. I miss you so so so so much already. Won't you come and spend more time with me someday? I'll blog more about this, maybe tm or something, peeekchas included , I promise :D

Friday's training was the bomb. Two trainings in one day, crazy or what! Police training was fun fun fun. I'm super happy and gay, because i'm so in love with the coach! He's good. And super adorable! His catchphrase "Aduhhhhhhhhhhhhh!" and then he does some rocker-thing with the hockey stick. You tell me, cute or what? And he even signals to me in Malay during the game seh.
"Ahh Fazee, lari atas. Kiri kiri kiri! "

KitMan is the hot potato.
Brown on the outside, yellow on the inside.
Get it?

Today's outing with FFFF was a blast too, thanks to Chanel and Hilton who got this all planned out. Thanks also to the guys that came down to Chanel brother's shop. Funny fun fun fun times! I want some more. More about this another day. Peekchas is not with me.
(:

I hope you'll stay strong. I know its hard. But you know, someone once told me be strong for me and i'll be strong for you. And hey you, be strong for ___ and ___ will be strong for you too. Of course, i'll never stop praying for the both of you, may god soften that someone's heart. You know I'm always here, for you.
Don't forget to eat kay.
Love you.

celebrations yayyyyyyy(:

2008-11-18T01:35:00.000-08:00

Wow, its been quite some time now.

Been busy like a bee, :D

Let's start, get ready for a whole lot of peekchas people.

Thursday,13thNovember2008.

My last day being a silly sixteen year old was spent with my dearest,
one and only brothersheeps(sisterlurbxzzzxz where seh?TSK.)
Augustine, Benjamin, Bryan, Aizat, Alvin.
I just spotted something. Can you?
SEE PROPERLY AHH!
Augustine, Benjamin, Bryan, Aizat, Alvin. ABBA(A) BOYS. t
sktsktsk. Or maybe ABABA?
Fine L and I you get ALIBABA!
Ok, should stop now.

So anyway, the day was spent @ Secret Recipe IMM! Yummy food with yummy people. Hahaha. Had a great time, catching up over dinner. Food was great, though I couldn't finish mine. Ben ordered the kids meal yo! It was hillarious, how he made the waiter giggle by asking whether he was entitled to order a kids meal. While waiting for the bill, * I'm gettin excited typing this one out* the lights started to dim, and the waiter-with-the-slang came out with a slice of chocolate cake and tadaaaa, he sang the birthday song. No wonder Ben and Augustine(yes,augustine) kept conversing in cheeeeena language. Thanks Ben, for the wonderful Chris Brown mini-concert eh! HMPIGS! Ahhhh, the little things that make me smile. So I made a wish* Augustine asked me to wish for something, which I thought was quite funny, but quite mean too ah. You know I know. And no, I don't miss you(refer to tagboard)

Advertisement. Product: Aizat gay.

Piggyback time! :D

The look on Bryan's face was priceless. Why scared?

Superman, batman, somemore?

Fight fight, more more!

Happy girl.

So many fishes in the pond, so why worry? Right...

Ok, I do miss all of you luh):

Am still smiling now, each time I think of the cake, the song,the people.
The lepaking session was great too:D
So here's my thank you to my brothersheeeeps for being so sweeet(:

Friday, 14November2008

YAY, finally seventeeeen.
Had a happy happy morning, with a happy happy note to self.
You know, somethings just made me truly feel,
that god is fair(:

So the plan was to have a makan session @ Marina Square's Seoul Garden! Was very excited, getting ready for the dinner with dearest sister of mine. So finally we're out of the house, waited for momsie @ JE. Hahahah. Guess who I bumped into? Surprise surprise. But anyways, made our way. To city hall. One word, bloated. Thanks to momsie for the dinner! Its been a while since I saw her laugh so hard. Thank you god(:

Let the pictures do the talking.

So everyone had to try on abang's goofy specs.
Just look @ momsie! Cute or what?

And the winner of Ms Goofy 2008 goes to ...

Atiqahhhhh! TSK.

This is what I call, sista love yo!

FAT OR WHAT?

Can I bring this baby home?

Bright, spotlights!

Girls will always be girls(:

Family w/o papa?

Imitation seh:D

I think he did it.

Happy girl, once again.

Saturday,15November2008

Went to do volunteer work with dearest Mr Safhras Khan(abg boy). Collect money @ some school. Well, it was quite an experience actually. And then we headed toheadquarters. He drove me around, showing me all thoose big houses, some of which were used for shows before. Ahhh, big houses are nice. Then he decided to treat me to Popeyes! YAY! So we ate, mashed potato is the bomb! And we talked a little, him seeing all the stewardess reminded him of a someone from the past. Emirates lady, imagine having someone calling you from Dubai each night just so she can sing you a song? Lucky or what, you tell me. And I enjoyed the long drive home, falling to a deep deep sleep.

So look ma, i'm growing fatter with all the food. Time to burn it, all together now.
(:

A pleasant surprise, yes it was. But its funny and hard to imagine that the person who sat next to you was someone ever so close to you, but now it felt like we just known each other through friendster. Laugh it off? You tell me.

Seventeeeeeeen(:

2008-11-14T05:10:00.000-08:00

Yay! A happy seventeen.
Thanks for the wishes people.
(:

With love, fazee*

The thank you's .

2008-11-14T02:03:00.000-08:00

A LONG POST. WARNING.

I remember being at the after-prom-party at this time last year, partying my life away. Well, that was the after life of a i-just-finished-o's student. Ahh, thoose were the days, weren't they? Who doesn't remember em', lovely lovely days? Sweet sixteen, well they always say. Sweet, yes/no?

Well, to start off, I remember having to suffer from a great great great fall a couple months back. Well, one of the greatest was in December of course. You know, till today, sometimes I would wake up hoping that it didn't happen, well at least I did for quite some time. I remember feeling very very lost, felt like god took the light away from my world back then.

Past few days weren't exactly easy to go through. But reading through the old posts back @ my old blog and the current one did help. Well, the days away from this computer did help, thank god(: You know, life has always been full of ups and downs, so they say. But i'm really thankful, recalling all that has happened this year, I realise that no matter what, I always had someone there for me(well,most of the time), to sit me through the unwanted parts.

Our favourite photo, cause we look kiddy, means young seh..

To begin with, I met this pretty someone who lives just a few blocks away, and that girl is Miss Chanel Yong Kit Man. I remember the days girl, those talks we had @ the bball court. The sorrows and joy that we shared, I'll never forget em'. You know, I thank god, that we got this close after almost ten years of knowing each other. Girl, please know, that I'll always be here for you, no matter what. And yes, I enjoy the times we gossiped, talking about h for heartbreaks(oops). There's only so much I can do, but here's a thank you just for you.
(:

FFFF with personal photographer, Mr EK.

And then I got pretty close to my 3 other quarters in school. FFFF. KitMan, LJ, Nicole, you guys will always be the happiest bunch of people I know of. Happy, I like. Though things may not be the same anymore, you know, I hope we'll stick together as one kae, no matter what. Because you girls make Pj a whole lot happier place to be in. Four Forever Fat Friends, see the word forever? Cause we'll forever be there for one another, yes? Here's many thanks to the three of you for the awesome life I have in Peeeeej.
(:

I had my no.1 Benjamin Koh by my side, all this while too. You know, you're the first one who approached me ever since then. And you were the first one to show that you really care. You know, sometimes I forget all the worries I have cause whatever happened, it sure brought me this lot closer to you. And Ben, the times spent shopping talking walking nonsense-ing, they're really worth so much. The little things you do never fail to make my day, especially with your random smses. I remember when you told me this "When you free? One day I bring you go out, go play kae." That was then, when life was so sucky with school work being so unbearable. Thank you Ben, for you've never failed to be there for me.
Like you always say, you'll always be my baby!
(:

Also, not forgetting my brothersheeeps&sisterloves(?) From oldest to youngest, Ben, Augustine, Aizat, Alvin, Bryan. I really enjoyed myself just now. Thanks for spending my last sixteenth-year day with me you guys.You know, though we don't get to meet up often, I really love every single meet ups with the bunch of you, cause you never fail to make me smile each time.

To Bryan, the youngest one, thank you for every little jokes that you once made. Know that I'll always be here for you k, don't ever doubt that. Let's have more talks about A(You know who) No. where boy? Kidding. To Alvin, the slow one, Happy Advanced seventeen! 4 more days, you're gonna be one year older.To Aizat, the sachok one, its been quite some time since I last saw you. So happy to hear that you're finally with ... Last longggggg(: And hey, fireworks for your next b'dae. To Augustine, abang handsome!, thank you so much to you for every single piece of advice that you gave me. For the talks, you listening to my dreadful stories, thank you for always being there too. Hey, Iwill remember what you said while I was making my wish just now ah ... HAHAHA. May you get your license soon!
Stop smoking all of you, hmpigs!
(:

@ tas b'dae surprise, remember?

A special bunch of people who has always been there ever since way back then. They are non other than the e2 clique. Thanks Aida,Benjamin,Dianne,Diyanah,Hazlin ... for the every single meet up sessions , be it birthdays or just sitting @ mc' cafe. I'm so happy to see that we're all doing fine, in our different schools. Please keep in touch lovelies, for I never want to lose the few of you. See ya'll soon, chalet maybe?
(:

The three ultimate happy-pills, my lovely lunas, Aisyah, Chandini and Tasvita. The three of you have been vvv. wonderful indeed, simply the best girlfriends one can ever ask for. You know, though we can't meet up as often as we did, please know that I'll always be more than willing to sacrifice my weekends just so we can sit by the beach, or watch the stars. The talks that we have, you know they really are what I call girl-talk. Thanks alot, girlfriends.

To Aisyah, I'm so happy to see you so so happy with mataHARI. I'll always pray that the two of you last long ayte? For the priceless late night talks that we use to have back @ the playground , I thank you for never failing to lend a listening ear. Well please know that if you ever ever ever need a listening ear, mine's available alright? To Chandini, my Batok girl, I'll always remember the talks we have while heading back from wherever, especially from the MRT back home. Not forgetting, the countless times you say "You be careful ah. Dark seh, message me when you're home k" when we are parting. Adorable or what? And to Tasvita, my favourite clown in the whole wide world, hasn't it been a long journey? You know, I will never forget thoose times, fooling around on the phone, or a JE station, never will I forget you. You know, as we headed to different schools, you to JJ, me to Pj, I always thought that the distant between us would keep growing, so much that we're only drift apart. But you proved me wrong on Tuesday. The talks that we had @ your comfy sofa, boy weren't they enough to get us to where we were before we parted? Thank you Tas, for you've always been my pillar of strength, the one who knocks some sense into my head and the one who never fears to disagree when she thinks I'm wrong. You know I love you, and you and you.
(:

To mama papa kakak abang adik and bibik, I feel so blessed to be in this famiy.
OK, THIS ONE LATER.

Last but not least...
Syukur alhamdulillah to Allah for making it possible for me to celebrate another year of my life.
Alhamdulillah, to all the memory that he let me have. For even the bittermost memories had a meaning, a learning point, that kept me going. And for blessing me with my family, friends that I have. For giving me the strength even at my worst days, for keeping me strong. Insyaallah, i'll get stronger by the day with his guidance. Dear Allah, I'll be sitting for my big A's this year. Please keep me strong, away from all distractions, so that I can keep myself focused and make mama and papa proud.Amin.

So to you you you, anyone at all, I thank you for going through the year with me.
So here's to my seventeeeeen life(:
Seven-thin can?

Hey you, thank you for the email, for keeping to the promise(: Though reality was harsh at first, well i'm glad we're in talking terms at least. And don't worry, i'll stay strong, watch me. Fazee's strong kae..All the best, takecare(:

may you be happy, always.

2008-11-07T22:40:00.000-08:00

I picture you there while i'm sitting here,
trying to distract myself from missing you so much.
Its not easy...
My thoughts always find a way to come back to you.

Your silhouette's in the background of every image in my mind,
and your voice runs through my head just like a love song.
Sometimes i'll think I see you in a crowd, but its not you.
- its just wishful thinking.

I want so much to be able to touch your arm, hold you close ...
Feel you heart beating warm against mine.
But all i'm left with here is this incredible sense
of missing everything about you.

I want you to know that everyday I
travel endless stretch of time
till we can be together again,
and every night I keep the light on in my heart
- the light of love just for you.

-Dianna Manning

You know, the days get tougher as Nov 14th's approaching. Sometimes, I only wish that things won't turn out this way, but since it did, well maybe its time to face the music. I can't hide from facing facts forever, and maybe it really is time for me to start. Reality gave me a knock on my head yesterday. I realized how long it has been ever since. It surprised me though, that i'm still clinging on, to memories.

It would have been easier if you told me. My thoughts, they were accumulated into a ball of thread, waiting to be untangled. I felt very lost, am still felling likewise. I only wish you would tell me, but hey reality check, why is there a need to tell me? Then came memories of the promises we made that we'll tell each other if ever we found our partners. Where did that go to? I've yet gotten any sleep thinking about it. Each time I close my eyes, I don't see just you. But I see two. And the nightmare goes on. Why won't you come and tell me, yourself. But maybe it'll hurt more.

My head's all fuzzy. Temperature's been 38.8 since last night, ain't helping at all. I'm tired, but I can't put myself to sleep. Sleeping the whole day, waking up in between of nightmares.Anyway, this poem hit me hard the other day. Meaningful, I would say.

I'll be running away, from blogging. I need my quiet time, my alone time with god. Let's just say some time to rebuild the walls to my empty soul, somewhere far far away, where there's just me.But until I find my happy soul back, I'll be waiting, patiently.

With god's guidance, Insyaallah, i'll be strong enough.

I wish you well,
may you be happy,
always.

I knew, but deep down, please know it still hurts.

2008-11-07T02:06:00.000-08:00

You know? There were so many happy things to blog about:

1. Benjy's B'dae celebration @ Seoul Garden
2. Class chalet
3.First visit to munch(km's brother cafe)

But you know what?
I've lost it all, the happiness that I felt for the past 3 days in chalet,
i've said bye bye to them in
less than a day,
less than an hour.

You know? Do you know why?

Today was the official results day.
You know, somehow, we all knew it was bound to happen.
But no, we didn't expect it to be this .. bad if you would say.
I'm tearing, hoping only for the best.
Seeing an empty seat beside me wasn't a pleasant sight.
It felt so empty.
Empty, yes empty.
But only god know what was playing in your mind.
And it felt sucky knowing that I couldn't be of any help.

So I'll sit down, and say a little prayer.
For you, my friend.
Let's just hope things go our way from now on okay?
You stay strong love.

You know, I've been feeling very lost for the past few days.
I really have.
Especially when the others got drunk during the first night of chalet.
I felt lost.

happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad

They say pictures say a thousand words,
but it left me with nothing but tears.
Of joy/misery? You decide.

You know?

happy menjeng day *

2008-11-06T23:37:00.000-08:00

To my lovely and oh-so-pretty forever no.1 bollywood star,
Ms Snowy Menjeng.
Happy 23rd Birthday sisterku(:

Yes, life has been very demanding hasn't it?
For you, there were times where I witnessed you breaking down.
Where the problem lies, I'm thankful and happy to god,
for letting you find your solution to the cause of your miseries,
and be able to smile once more.

Sometimes, I wonder how it was like being in your shoes.
As the eldest, mama and papa would expect more from you.
You're the role model (Tsktsk.)
You're the one who has to open up dialing service,
each time we were MIA-ing.
You're the one who tries so hard to bond us 4 together.
Movies, dinner, jokes.
I would always remember you for being that one pillar,
that kept the four of us together.

I've always cherished the times we had, talking.
Serious talks, I mean.
You never fail to fill me in, somehow.
For the many nag-sessions that you received
from papa and mama because of me,
I'm so so sorry.

Thanks for standing by me,
when I needed someone to support me.
when I needed company.
when I needed a friend.

Hope you last long with botak jones,
I'll always pray for your happiness.

You know I'll never stop loving you(:

MENJENGGGGGGGGG!

A little something(:

2008-11-03T01:24:00.000-08:00

I'll be going away for a little while.
Chalet baby!

Here's a little piece from me.
A little somethin from our dance class the othertime.

(:

Till then, takecare.

Nobody can put my daddy down, not even you.

2008-10-31T13:26:00.000-07:00

You know, I've always look at you as someone I can look up to. You know why? No, not because you're a superior power I have to look up to but simply because you're a ____. No, you don't ___ me, but still you're a ____.

But you can say goodbye to the word respect now. I've lost it. You can say ten thousand words to insult me if you want, but when you spoke ill of my daddy dear, you've crossed the limit.

You know, thinking of what happen, you're really ___. I can't find a word, cause even the worst of words is an understatement.

Stop saying that its just a misunderstanding and that it was over when you were the one who began everything. You could have said it nicely, goodness you're a ____ please. Initially, when my dad told me of the things that were happening, I was mad @ my dad, because I thought it was something small that he blew up. But when I saw the attitude that you gave me, saying "how do you expect me to know?" it just shows your ignorance , being someone who is going to organize a trip.

Yes, I should have consulted you. But don't you think it was a two way thing. I really have no problem with you not fully understanding my culture, my religion. That's perfectly alright. But if you were not sure, why not ask someone who may know better than you do? Yes, go on and say I should have asked you. But seriously, dude, you would have told us if only you would have put in more care and concern into the welfare of your ____.

I felt very angry, truly angry, that you were so upset with my dad. But now, I realize the point daddy was trying to bring up. And I thank daddy for that. You know, it sucks knowing that someone like you could actually try to bring someone like daddy down. It really does. And worst thing is dad's ... NVM!

And at the end of it, you could just smile and tell me its just a misunderstanding.
* S C R E A M S *

This right here is for you.

2008-10-30T21:27:00.000-07:00

I would have painted a rainbow on the sky,
if that was what you wanted.

Dear loved ones,
some of you might be sitting for your A's right now.
There's OP left for us year 1's.
Well whatever it is,studies or not,
Here's an all the best to everyone out there.
Well, just so you know.
(:

credits to LittleBlackUmbrella @ deviant art.

moving real fast, yet at times so damn slowly ?

2008-10-28T00:10:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, 21st October 2008
Who's party ? Why dinner? Where?

Here's a sneak peak of my long long long to be postponed post.
You know why?
CAUSE AIDA HASN'T SEND ME THE PHOTOS SEH!
):

This week has been i'm-so-hungry-i-can-eat-a-cow week.
Really, I've been eating non-stop.
(Km, stop it ah, stop saying FAT seh!)

Here's a brief overview of the less interesting stuffs:
1. Wednesday: Release of promos results,FFFF goes Breeks.
2.Thursday:Wait, I forgot what ...
3.Friday: Pitch training, FFFF slumberparty @ Nicole's.
4:Saturday: Pw-ing
5:Sunday: High tea@ Royal Park Hotel with momsie love.
6:Monday: Happy Deeepavali to you, Khan's BBQ @ CSC.

I'll update when someone sends me some overdue photos please, *ehemsehemsaidaehems*

Faster, October's ending already seh!

satiesfied oh so much(:

2008-10-27T14:14:00.000-07:00

Lovelies, say hello to the new blogskiniooooos(:

It makes me feel happy happy happy, satisfying much!
yay-yay!
(:
*B-E-A-M-S*

Just a little more for pw,
the slides almost done.
I'm on track.
(:

Okay, got to go now,
Khan's BBQ @ CSC

Updates soon kae,
promise.

please don't ever ever turn back anymore.

2008-10-20T23:56:00.000-07:00

Disappointing,that's what you are.

I've yet to get any sleep since last night. Well, something was bothering me. I was reluctant to go to school today, I just felt like staying @ home. I was already in my home clothes. But you've gotta be there for a friend don't you? And yes, I went to school for a very special someone who isn't having the best times now.

Was reading the papers today morning, and I had the urge to read the horoscope for the day. I really missed thoose times when evil clown keeps me updated with all the predictions. You wanna know what's my horoscope for the day? Well, here it is.

You know you need to let go of something or someone. It is the best time for that because your emotional energy is nearing its peak and you can sense how important that is,Moday 20th October.

Well, I've got so many things I wish like saying here, especially all the cursings and swearings I could ever have done to an annoying someone out there. Ok, maybe 2 someones.

You know, I've always been a vvv. happy person, seeing just the two of you together, staying strong no matter what. And even after all those hard times, I've always seen you as someone different. And seeing you always gave me the hope to keep the faith, keep hoping for that special someday ... But you know, you just dissappointed me with your doings. I've always regarded you as a friend you know that? But look what you've done now. You're simply annoying, a 2 headed snake, maybe worst than that. Disgusting, your taste is worst than a cow, sorry to say that. I'm god damn sure, loser, listen to this kae. YOU'RE GOING TO REGRET.

I've been worrying all night long, thinking of my dearest. What's going through your mind? Are you alright? I remembered thoose times when I discovered what ..... I remembered how it felt like, you're probably having it harder. You know, all this time I knew, but I chose to kept it inside, well at least till today that is.

It was really nice, letting some of the things I've kept in me out in the library with the girls just now. You know, you girls are the sweetest friends I can ever wish for in Peeeeejc. Well, as frustrated as I was with the situation, and the comments that they gave, I still do feel the guilt. But at least, I know something, and I ain't gonna let myself be fooled over and over again. Well, let's see how long you can keep this things from me.

You know, I really don't know whether its worth , everything that I'm doing, that she's doing. Refering to my horoscope, no I'm not a believer. But it just kept me thinking the whole day. What a coincidence eh! I feel as though I'm stuck in between, somethings holding me back. It may not mean anything more to you, but still it means alot to me, vvvv. much still. I'm halfway there, so maybe its time to make a choice now.

Well, maybe its time to let time do the healing already. Enough said.

I'll pray that we'll stay strong kae? You must be strong. Stop slapping yourself already, its not worth it. You'll be much much happier someday, without having to see a single one of em'. That bloody minah, someday we'll kick her in the face. I'll be here, always will be for you.

Takecare loves.
ohhh! meeting the e2 clique @ marina tm! oh yay-ness(:

Its cold outside but somethings colder within ...

2008-10-20T03:12:00.000-07:00

You know, its so stressful. Leading the life that just had to go out of plan. You know, it really does. I'm not saying I'm bimbotic-ally hoping and wishing that everything goes my way, the way I had plan it to be. Its just, it would be a lot easier if the "major" things we have always hoped for would go the way we plan it to be. Enough said.

Warning: This is gonna be a long post.

Onto the brighter side:

Yesterday was a happy day, really was. Went over to Liyana Yeo's house(: Boy, don't I miss having you around calling me loser all day. Her sisters were the bomb, cute and adorable with matching outfits. My aunt came over for visiting, together with the nephews and nieces(: My happy-pill.

You know, papa's friend came over yesterday, with his adorable son(: Really cute, his name is Iman, for short. A livewire I would say. He really brought laughter to the house. And you know what's the best part. He's born on 14th November tooooooooo :D Yay. The 3rd person I know of so far.

My lovely twin, Imannnnn.

Me and my lovely lovely niece, NashitaSalleh

You know, she was so happy to be able to take a photo with him.
She was like "Han-chem!"
Then we asked, pointing to each girl asking Iman if she's pretty.
Then when he pointed at me, guess what he said (((((:
*shakes your bom bom!*
cantik tau, don't play play tauuuuu!
tsktsktsk.

14 November babies! (:

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Raya08@CikguSiti'sHouse , Sunday 19 Oct 2008

That was something to look forward to! Girls all dressed up, I love dressing up, well maybe not. Well, it was really fun, except for the "bring-out-the-cat-times". I was vvvv. scared I tell you. But I had a blast with my lovely girls back @ malay class. The 5 of us. Ehemehems, let em' be introduced.

First up, my malay-class-buddy, Hanisah! Hahaha. This babe really reminds me of Musyi, cause they make malay class fun to be in. I really love our gossip sessions in Malay class yo! Hahaha. Must have more kae(: Love you babe!

Second up, we have Rita, the indo-chinese babe who was apparently, my neighbour . and I mean a few doors away, same storey and you get me. Well, I've always thought she was a quiet and upright girl, but but but today has proven me wrong (the others should know what I mean) You crazy girl! Camwhore somemore la! Tsktsktsk(:

Then we have ATIQ, the silat girl! Hahaha. Well, she's the livewire in class, always with her jokes eh. Stop scaring me with your legs ah, you know I'm scared of cats! Hahaha (:
Btw, Happy Belated 18th B'dae!

Last but not least, we have Suliezah! The sweet girl. You look sweeeeet in this photo please! Hahaha. And yes, you found my blog seh! Now I can't gossip about you no more. Tsktsktsk, kidding(:

WAKAKAKAKA.

Who that?
HAHAHA.

Us with Cikgu!
Cikgu look so young ah!
And I look -___-

Mirror mirror on the wall:D

They wanted a photo together, so I said okay(:
Who's nice?

The girls
( picture abit blur ahhhh,sorry)

Candid. SEE SEE, Rocker post!

Bapak of gossip on the left, guy who never stop calling me minah rocker on the left.
Stop it ah!:D

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Momsie-daugther love

You know, its a rare occassion that me and mum dearest get to sit and talk. Today, was one of those loved sessions. Let's name this guy(sister's friend) guyA. So mum wanted to do some online shopping so I helped her out, when suddenly guyA said " hey.. long time nvr hear fr ya..." So mum was like, what is he doing talking to you. And I was like , IDK. So mum and me was like thinking of the means and way to ask him questions. Hillarious, we're like having the greatest time of lives laughing.

Joke no.1
byk duit raya this year?
heheheh
boleh tahan lah, but still waiting for your golden packet eh!
on no wonder askin me to come to ur plc eh

Joke no.2
send my regards to ur parents ya.. i'll come down one day
yes,sure
but hari raya left one week know, so must hurry up come!
yea,one week left..
means i have to come in baju kurung is it?
no need lah!
as long as you wear baju will do seh!
Lol
i will.. if my body like batista then maybe i'll come down in my trunks k..

WITW.
We always thought he looked like an asian ver. of batista that's why.

Joke no.3
mesti da ade BF ar ni...
i nvr say anitin ... hehe
hello, waiting for ustaz matsalleh to come and fetch me
hahaha
wah nak ustaz... tapi
matsalleh...
ish..
so picky..
hehe

Mummy contributed to the writings above! Hillarious.
Love you, ma(:

Sister-love.

Need I say more?

You know, today started off pretty roughly. To begin with, I had the worst of dreams. No,it wasn't a nightmare, but it was once I woke up, cause waking up means I'm back to reality. Tears just rolled down, non-stop. I hate waking up feeling this way. Nevertheless, I thank god for it. You know, evil, when I saw your msg, you saying that I'm the first one you thought of when you woke up, I was touched. Happy and sad.
And it was even better knowing that you were nearby, hearing that you wanted to drop by. Too bad I had this raya-ing to do. Nevertherless, meeting you and your lovely family @ wm was nice . Though it was all awkward and stuff, I truly realise how much I've missed you, your family. And I'm really sorry, the emotions had to keep running): And the song that was playing on my player @ that time was worst.

Tuesday faster come kae(:

This chair is so comfy, that I'll always fall asleep.

Gonna rest my back that is aching like crazy now.

it wasnt going to be like it was before

2008-10-18T00:54:00.000-07:00

Because happiness starts with a smile.

You know, bus rides are filled with more silence than ever. Sometimes, I wonder, are you thinking of what I'm thinking of, or maybe something similar. Or are you just daydreaming. Or are we just too tired to talk?

Okae, that was random. But just something small that I've realised. But you know, it really makes a whole big difference. It seems that many people aren't really themselves lately, especially thoose around me. For the first time, P looked so tired during Pw. B wasn't really as cheerful and cheeky. Oh well, maybe this is the post-promos feeling eh?

You know, today's training was a very emotional training. No girls, it wasn't because we didn't train with the guys ( see see, we missed the chance yo!) ... Sometimes, I very much would like to say things the nicest way, but sometimes, you've just got to be mean. Well, whatever it is, I know know know for sure that we'll get through this somehow, cause I know deep down, each and everyone of us love the company. Well, what is life without its challenges right? This is just the beginning yo, we've still got a long way to go. So pull up your smelly socks girls(:

Anyway, chanel brought some jungle snap game today. * snatches the thingy * I'm the jungle princess worrxzxzxzxxxxs. HAHAHA. What's with bobby lee and worrxzxzxzxzzxs. Anyway, to my dearest chanel chanel chanel yong, don't worry too much about *ehemeverythingisbeautifulehem* kae? You know I love you, so you've got to cheer up worrxzxzzzxzxxxs! HAHAHA. Come my house one day, we'll play dressing up with the new curler I bought kae, then you can earn your tittle as fat girl with curly hair!

And to anyone/everyone who's not feeling too happy for one reason or another, cheer up kae(:

I'm in love with my lovely snowy dear, kakak , for buying the curler and straightener yo! Peekchas with love.

Gotta go rest the head now.
(:

Takecare kae.

Fly me to the moon!

2008-10-17T13:15:00.000-07:00

Currently in school's library. Km is probably stuck in the lecture theatre doing her mock exam now. I'll have to wait another hour for mock to start , so here I am.

You know, the library's kind of quiet. Though I would say there are probably a lot more people here, compared to like in the past. All the J2's are busy with A's. Study study study while we juniors are worrying our days away thinking of promos results.

)))): Sad happenings, I don't know.

You know, Uncle EK was talking about the different personalities in class. Like " So and so will probably end up being a (insert-occupation) " You know what I mean? Yes, so guess what? He prediction was that I'm going to end up with the tourism industry. What in the world? Imagine me going " Please follow me .. This is the yabadahyabadah " HAHAHA. But I remembered having Mr Sam saying the same thing when we were in sec2. Do you guys remember? Only Mr Sam said I'll be in the hotel industry. Hotel?! I want to be like, an astronaut or something!( Jolene just came by to say " I am the best" LOSER ) *Does the r-loser sign to Jolene* She just called me a sucker! Km's gonna be an advocate. No linkage man, how to meet in the future?

jo rocks my socks(written by jolene , the no.1 fan of r!)

Quoted by Jolene, the goalkeeper, "fly me to the moon"
My reply is " Wait till I become an astronaut kae! "

Two thumbs up(:

I'll come back later @ night, maybe.

A little too late for anything now.

2008-10-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

I miss this bunch of people most still.

Just a quick post before I'm off to falalala-land.

Yesterday was p-i-t-c-h training (: One supermega-size bus for just less than 20 girls. How cool is that? I enjoyed training a lot, though running was a lot tougher all thanks to our lovely shoes that got miserably soaked by the rain water. Remember the mudflood outside JJ girls? Hahahaha. Felt like we did a whole lot yesterday. Everything was nice yesterday. Even the hockeyvillage uncle was, giving us extra time and all. I'm gonna train train train, so that Audrey's plan for midfielders can work out. KM, STOP EATING FRENCH FRIES!

Anyway, had a small talk with coach. Somehow, what she said meant a lot to me. And I know what she said was right. Time time, I need time. I'll always remember, never will I forget. I'm feeling so motivated right now(: Thanks ah!

Bad news is, I heard some people are already gonna be retained):
This is sad.

Good news is, Cheeeeeeeena trip coming right up!

Enjoy the song, that is if it plays. You need luck yo!

Nothing feels right.

2008-10-14T00:08:00.000-07:00

I'll update soon. Be back soon.
My three lovely Lunas, meet up soon kae?
See cause that up there, is for you.
You you you(:

Enjoy the song kae.

Times like this, I have nothing else to say.

2008-10-09T23:02:00.000-07:00

You know what? At the start of this week, I kinda knew/felt that this week wasn't going to be a hurray-hurray one.

You know what? I had millions of people asking me if I was alright, that I wasn't the usual me. Especially the girls @ hockey. Was I?

You know what? There were millions of people I felt like calling the past few days just to get past the time, but I didn't. And don't bother asking me why.

I definitely am missing Ika dear. You know why? Because I miss the joy that I had just spending time with her, even at the saddest moments , we are always happy together. I guess I'm still in raya mood. I want to go out and just see all my aunties/uncles/nieces/nephews/cousins ... Just so I can get past the time.

The one thing that keeps bothering me now is results. I'm worried sick, who isn't I told myself. But you know what? Mr thumb said I got 15/100. True or not? You decide.

I know everyone's tired. When the girls kept asking if I was alright, I just said that I'm tired. Truth is, I'm not tired physically but mentally. I'm tired inside. It sucks to have to keep so many many many things inside just cause you figured its better to do so, cause people around you may get sick of you and your thoughts. Maybe people are better off not knowing.

Still, I thank the fellows in PW group for just now. You know what, even though we actually had to re re-do our WR cause apparently when we saved it the first time, it couldnt be opened. And so from 6, we had to stayed on further till about 8. And you guys really made it lively, other than having the two idiots bry and wc wrestling with each other like 24/7 and how many times the word "amazing" was repeated(needless to say the ultimate bullying session!), staying wasn't too much of a chore. Yet at the back of our minds, we're all worried.

Sometimes, when I sit around just not saying a word. It doesn't really mean I don't care. Sometimes, its better to leave someone alone, when he/she needs the time alone. But of course, we shouldn't leave that person alone, well, at least be there. And if that someone is ready, he/she would open up, sooner or later. You know, so many points of view within such a short period of time. Yet, I'm holding on firmly to my stand. I wish you knew how it feels, being treated like that. No, I'm not putting the fault at anyone. But please know this sucks.

At times like this, I'm thinking. Who? would be there. You know, back @ batoksec, I was almost never alone. Well, except for those times in sec 2. You know, now it feels much worst then before. You know why? Cause I'm not too friendly here. Cause truthfully, I miss every single soul in Batok, for they made life easier in one way or another.

I miss my lovely lunas):

Yet you know what? I'm thinking that I'll be happy by the end of the week.(insyaAllah) You wanna know why? Cause I'm gonna meet my lovely lunas, my 3 lovely girls, tomorrow. And I know there's so much to talk about. And I'm so gonna hug each and everyone of them, as much as I can. I miss you girls, really do ):

You know what? At times like this, I can't help but miss having you around. Sorry, but that's the truth. *backspaced*And yet I can't help crying wishing you were her, somewhere. Do you care? No. Shit, I'm not supposed to feel this way no more.

This love we made will stay, under pressure.

2008-10-06T12:59:00.000-07:00

Enrichment day was today. I thought it would be full of yawns but it turned out otherwise(:

Day started with some talk by some outsiders. Had live band, Jack and Rai! Really really like their song, and they played I'm yours too :D So I got them cd, and am currently playing it while blogging. vvv. nice yo!

If you wanna falalalala with me
So let's go let's go
Don't be another one just like the other one
If you wanna falalalalala with me
Then go o no
I ain't gonna wait
Cos I'm doing fine on my own
(The falala song)

Then we had our electives. Hip hop dancing for me and Km yo! HAHAHA. Boy did I have fun. Real fun. With the dance instructor A-N-D-Y. Stretching was cracking all the bones away man. Me and Km were laughing our hearts out with the moves we just couldn't get right. * Bounce bounce bounce * Got reminded of the talentime days. Really nice time spent. Didn't regret right Km? (:

I thought I took one step
I took two back
I'm not even close this time
and that's a fact
All I know is that we'll be
the perfect match

So where you at love?
(Anonymous-Bobby Valentino)

*Spins like crazy*

Peekchas!

He was very amazed with my moto phone, he had to take a shot!Fa la la la la!(:

With Jack&Rai(:

Dancers for the day.

With Andy yo yo yo! Tsk.

The good ol' days.

Let's dance somemore.

Salam Lebaran 08(:

2008-10-06T00:51:00.000-07:00

The long unwinding roads, they've yet to show it all. Cos its just the beginning.
Taken @ the highway.

Ready for a superly long peekchas filled post yet? Hello to you if you are(:

My dearest idil fitri this year was really a nice one for me.

We've thrown the old furni's away. Bring in the new ones!Highlight: The curtains, very egypt.

1st day of rayayaya!

For a start, we were all quite early with our make-ups and blablabla. Hence, we're off with smiles(:

Well, of course there were tears. Lined-up, from eldest to youngest. The usual but very important forgive&forget sessions. Papa gave me a huge huge huge hug after I told him what I had to say(: Mummy kept asking us to stop crying. Why? Cause she didn't want our make-up to go away. Funny or what? Kakakakakak was d-best! She gave us hangbaozxxxz, accompanied by a hug too. I'm so happy for her, lalalaaaa LOVE.

Yes, love is in the air. For i've found my one and only sweetheart. The boy that will never fail to put a smile smile smile on my face, the boy who never fail to amaze me with his cute ego. The boy who never fails to make me laugh, cause each time I say, "Ufaaaaaaan, you very handsome laaa." He says" I know." Zulfan is the love. *melts*

Off to many other houses but of course, the last one was the most important/fruitful. Say I-K-A.
What d'you get. Hahaha. My gorgeous girl is always so pretty, and was extra pretty with her new hair this year yo! Settled down in her rooooom. Lepaaaakings with the sisters, we were all pretty sleepy and tired. Listen to this kae. Kak Ita suddenly said, "Nak main make-up make-up?" Then we all became alive as ever, like undertaker from sleepy mode to idk what mode. HAHAHA. Pictures session was sheeeesh kebab because daddy wasn't there, hmpigs!

Total of 8 houses.

This is the family(not full)

Privacy. From mums to daughters, we're best of friends.
Ps.Look @ the guy on tv! Cousins! That boy I'm carrying is named Kimi, Hakimi(:Notice the hand, BANGLES!

Papa's girl, always will be(:

4th day of rayayaya! {the khans mini-gathering!}

The day was filled with visitors. One after another. TIRING. But, it was fun. My brother's god-ma came, tuk usu and the gang!, my paternal aunts&uncles, and and and I-K-A (and family!)
Fun la, real fun(: Someone sombong ehhhhhh! Tsktsktsk. And Ika missed her chances of getting to meet that sombong someone eh. Fate mane fate?

Abang Naz gave me hangbaozxzzxxx! (: He said "Nah,for you" Then the next minute, he said the same thing. Then I was like, "You gave me mine already." Then he was like "Really? Then you don't want a second packet?" * Beaaaaaaaaams like crazy* But no, I didn't take it, good girl kae.
Anyway, he's getting engaged soon eh. Oh well.

Tuk-usu and the gang without the photographer.

Tuk usu and the gang with photographer. Guess who?

I'm waiting for pictures from Kak Ita's camera. There's many more!

5th day of rayayaya!

Jalan raya with mummy's side(: Its always fun, and I really mean always. The mum's were really funny today.

Mum no. 1: Kak Mimaaaaaa (Ika's mum)
Spotted doing the peace sign when taking photos @ Wak Ima's place. Super funny. We were like, mummy trendy seh! She really did the peace thing alone know!

Mum no. 2: Kak Fatimah
Spotted doing the rocker sign. Everybody started saying Fatimah rocker! This Fatimah rocker name is being mentioned a million times since yesterday. So irritating. For thoose who don't know, Fatimah rocker is a nick name for the lady in white. Scary seh. But still, when kak fatimah does it, it is funny, remembering her good old days being a rocker herself. HAHAHA.

Mum no. 3: Kak Wawa!
She was the livewire when our parents went over to some friends place and we kids stayed @ her place. Watched Salon on sensasi(citarasaku!) and she practically made fun of the guys in the show. The best was when she screamed when Luna's(the main character) bf and fiance saw her at the same time. Kecoh or what?

The best house that we went to was papa's friends house. Very lovely house. And we were served beef steak and my all time fav. Spaghetti bolognaise yo! Made friends with papa's friend's daugther, Farah. Ij girl, and she knws the HPNV(: Cool or what?

Me and Ika kept counting down the minutes before we parted. Sad life): Till we meet again kae.

Fatimah rocker@ the back.

(:My super bibik, i'll miss youSTEAK!

My love, till we meet again.

Bangles bangles, many colours!

My sweetheart, Zulfan(:Who's signature post ah!

Salam sayang, nights!

A sweet sweet friend(:

2008-10-03T04:04:00.000-07:00

A day before hari raya(:

Messing with our new dresses eh Ika Ariyaaaaaaaaaani!

IMY):

Someone actually believed my full name was fazee-coco-khan eh! HAHAHA :D

Woke up @ 4 am to do PW.
Proper update soon kae, promise! Raya was the bombs anw. Soon soon.

A sweet message from a sweet friend(:
How they brighten up my days.
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2008-09-30T17:29:00.000-07:00

But I say Ramadhan is the best medicine(:

This blog says "Hello world, hello love"
Its amazing, what the month of Ramadhan can bring to someone. And even more amazing how much lessons there is to learn with each passing day. Ramadhan ramadhan ramadhan, why did it have to fly by so fast.

This is prolly the first Ramadhan that got me all tied up. For the first time in my life, I felt for Ramadhan. And alhamdulillah, I feel a lot closer to the people around me now. I realise how much I've been neglecting them, especially daddy. Well, what d'you know?

Yesterday, as the takbir went on the radio, I just can't help but tear. And I just couldn't eat. I kept walking around, trying to stop the tears from rolling as I didn't want any of my family members to see me in that state. Chanel, came at the best of time. When I needed a hug so badly. She just appeared at the front door(: Thank you love, sorry I didn't call you.

Flashbacks, yes they were running through my mind the whole of yesterday. Memories, sad or happy, are still memories. And they're like photographs, always etched at the back of my mind. I felt so sad Ramadhan had to end so soon. I wished it was a little longer. Then I'll have a little more time.

Daddy cried over prayers yesterday. And I sure will miss the times we prayed together. May we have more of thoose sessions. Daddy gave me a bug hug after we shoke hands. And I just can't help crying thinking of it. A big hug from daddy,thats priceless.

Ya Allah, please keep us in good hands and give us your guidance, always. Amin

To all out there, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri(: I ask for your forgiveness, if there were any times I have, in one way or another, hurt your feelings with my words/action. Sorry banget!

May everyone of you have a blissful raya yea? (:

My mind is all fuzzy now. My plan for a very long post is somewhat disrupted. Flu and fever and all, what a timing!

Bila cinta, tak lagi untukku. Bila aku, tak baik untukmu.
Its time to let go. But I wish you well.

Is this it?

2008-09-30T02:02:00.000-07:00

):

Today's gonna be the last day of Ramadhan already. I don't want it to end just yet know. Not now, when I'm still learning whatever there is to be learned. Don't get me wrong, its not like I'm not excited for this year's raya. I am. Very very much excited actually. Its just I didn't expect Ramadhan to pass by so so so so so so so fast. Unfair as it may seems, some people may not understand why in the world it is so important to me right now. Well, if you do know why, then (:

On a brighter note, I'll be revamping my blog. Just a minor change here and there. Since promos are officially over tm(for the whole jc1 cohort), I've promised to set a side some time to revamp my blog! Yay. Coming soon ah. Tsktsktsk. And I promise a vvvvv. long post later. An overview of everything thats been happening.

Meanwhile, let's see what I did yesterday.
1.Pw meeting
2.Date with Ika Ariyani @ Geylang !

2 is the love.
1 is the bomb.

Ika had her hair highlighted. A total bomb I tell you, hot stuff eh! :D Poly-student what!

Peeeeeekchas!

Bestest of cousins(:

We may seem different but we're actually same same.

Hais. "Happy" last day of fasting people.

1 day of Ramadhan left
Just another one day,
and i'm thinking is it time /.

Cats are scary, and they're mean!

2008-09-28T23:56:00.000-07:00

The past few days has been smiles smiles smiles(:
Quite a long post though, so may not want to bother.

Let's start with yesterday. I woke up laughing thinking of the dream I had. Two words; Weird&Funny. HAHAHA! It was yet another lovely long awaited date with Chanel dearest, this time to IKEA(: And it was wear-a-dress-day! Fun times trying to put make-up for one another. And yes, she's officially crazy over eye-liners:D Not forgetting our bangles! Shing shingszzxzxxxz!

IKEA was a bomb. We did all sorts of crazy wicked things(like crawling through the holes in the wall @ the kids section) We wanted to take photos so badly luh, but too bad the camera was being a naughty girl. So made do with our phones. Imagination set free, fun times yo!

Saw some ass though. ASS ASS ASS ASS ASS ASS. Sheesh kebab.
Off to Queensway. When I think of it now, I'll call myself a nut for buying the pink fbt. Now wait till I wear it for training. Blablabla. Bumped into Wati @ the busstop. I missed trainings with her man. But anw, Chanel was so excited eh. Juicy details , juicy juicy juicy! * Insiders secret *

So back to our widow house. HAHAHA! We were fooling around saying that we're going back to let our children(from where ah) see what we've bought.Then Chanel said, " Like that people think we Lesbian ah!" But then we decided that widows sounded more morally right. Welcome to the widow house~ Blablabla. Build the boxers! Do-it-yourself fun, yay:D And someone's off to her dinner date(:

A truly enjoyable day, indeeeeeeeeeeeed!

Guess what? Chanel came over to get her stuffs just now and she gave me strawberry strudel :D And then she send me a message saying "Enjoy that strawberry strudel, knowing that you'll always be a sweet strawberry to me, whatever happens k" * Melts like ice * To my prettiest friend, chanel apple, you've always been and would always be that apple that keeps doctor-blues away, my forever happy-pill(a fat one!) Thank you so much.

Ahhh, songs that means a lot to me, there on the player now. Listen kae!

2 days of Ramadhan left.
Let's make full use of it to achieve.
To that stronger person, inside out.

Whoever this may go out to, I want you to know that I'll always be here. Here here here here here, for you you you you you. I'm happy for you, that is what you need to know. And don't be sad, cause i'll be unhappy too. Remember what we talked about, if you really ______, pursue it. Don't give it up, if that's what you really want. I'm happy if you still are able to treat me as someone you can talk to, about whatever under the sun. Happy just that way. But I hope you won't do whatever, you know. I don't want to see you again if that's the case, cause I won't see the same old friend/buddy that I have always kept in my mind/heart. And it hurts to see you as another person that I know you're not. Don't let em prayers be put to waste kae? I'll keep praying for you with no doubt. You takecare and imy.

If there's no one beside you,
when your soul embarks,
the i'll follow you into the dark

And the bangles went shingggggggsxssxz (:

2008-09-25T07:17:00.000-07:00

Happy is the simplest yet most appropriate word that I can use to describe how I feel now, yes, this very minute, you know why?

Let me tell + show you the answer :

Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

Yes yes. Promos are finally, finally over! :D ( So happy for what, results how? tsktsktsk ) OH WELL. Each and everyone jc1 student of any junior college deserves a break from thinking too much for the past few days.

Anyway, my papers were alright ... not! So so so so so so ___. Ya think? Ahaaaaks! I'm just so scared for results, but you know what. Idk. Its done so its done. * crosses fingers *

Jason Mraz was stuck in my head when I was rushing the essays for cheeena paper just now. And I suddenly just stopped writing for a bit, and a random thought that I really love myself for taking the subject just like that. I hope I'll get my C at least, insyaallah(:

So so so, guess where me and Km went straight after the paper ? Guess ah, guess ah kae.

To the little red dot! Little India(: Trained there. The station was so empty we just had to take many many photos. She likes! Me likes too :D Went to Mustafa centre. Initial plan was to bring that mushroom-girl to Ru***** for threading. Naughty girl, keeps laughing when I say the name of the shop. Orhorrr, think of what ah ... Stationaries. Blablabla. We just couldnt resist the bangles! shingshingszxxz (with a lot more z&x eh Km)

Then headed to harbourfront. Some people wanted Mac'd ah. Eat somemore, EAT! Hahaha. Talked @ Mac'd, indeed refreshing. Boy, don't we share a fair bit of similarities? Anw, went vivo after that to walk around for a while. 2 vvvvvv.important things happen(kae,maybe one):

1. As we entered top man, I was like looking @ some stuffs near the counter. Then someone, whom I thought was Km, covered my eyes la. And the person did this " Kaoooooo". And boy am I delighted to have bump into you bestie. I felt so pleased know, really. vvv.happy , felt like god wanted us to meet so badly(: You know why? Cause only god knows how much I miss you, and he knows we're busy people with packed schedules for the rest of next week. I'm so happy to have bumped into you man! Thanks for the lovely warm hugs you never fail to give me each time yea? Now I'm starting to miss you all over again ):

2. This is funny. The situation was like " There there, that one. Oh shiet, they're looking at us, run! " Apparently, there was this 2 strangers were smiling smiling smiling and then someone saw saw saw and told another someone and then they got all hyped up. Cute I tell you, should have seen. If only ah Km, but guess we can keep dreaming eh. Sad-case):

Trained back to Batok. Listening to our favourite, Mercy by Duffy. Training for post-promos, oh yes we are. We'll be begging the teachers for mercy not anyone else though. Hopefully not yea?

Peeeekchas!

Meditation helps heal the wound of a student under pressure.

Tako tako, whose signature post ah?

Km says "On our way to heaven, may we meet our soulmates we so deseve"
And my reaction is this " (: "

My personal fav.

5 days of Ramadhan left.
This is really fast):

H for heartbreaks.

2008-09-10T20:59:00.000-07:00

* Bangggggggggggggs 10 000 times. *

Wondering what in the world I'm up to? Well, this was what the beloved tong tong drew on the whiteboard during chem class today before doing his head bang like 3 times. Right.

There's so many things I wanna blog about. BUT, I've only got 9 minutes before my sinetron ends, so that means 9 minutes of sit-back-and-relax-time left before I'm off to hit the books(: Oh well, I'm leaving many many things till after promos.

Its been 10 days since fasting started. I had a nice talk with Lj today. She asked me some questions about fasting and stuff. And it got me talking non-stop. HAHAHA! But, I'm glad I got her all excited listening to the stories. And guess what? I'm so gonna lend her the CD about the story of prophet Muhammad (s.a.w), after promos kae! Joys of spreading the love(:

Had a nice time with Km during CT time. Was listening to the script song, nice right? Tsktsktsk. Tako asked me a random question while we were talking+internetexplorer-ing( But I was mozillafirefox-ing) And that was if I've ever tried hating somebody. Have I? Had an mini-argument (nono, not catfight, just a "debate") Details shall be kept, between two of us. But all I have to say is, " Hating starts fights, but love covers all sins." Why hate when you can love? Cause hatred will only lead you to hating yourself at the end of the day. Say hi to positivities.

Had a nicer time in pw lecture, hiding from some people eh. Well babe, I'm so glad to see you happy that way you know? I know its been hard for ya, never was easy. H for ? Oh well, next letters' x so prolly xenon and xylophone next. Or maybe it'll be W eh(insiders joke). Awww, how on Earth am I supposed to find a W-named person? Willy Wonka, maybe. Mug hard mushroom(:

To a beloved someone, no words can express how much receiving a message saying you miss me mean. Its nice, to know that you're thinking of me even at this busy-bee week. And all the well wishes, thanks many many many.I feel loved. Very vey loved. You're indeed z-best, my beloved bestie for sure(:

I won't say I'm stronger just yet. But one things for sure, I'm not giving up, not on myself. I'm pretty certain there'll be days where I'll fall once again, but I'm praying that I'll only get stronger with each passing day(InsyaAllah). It'll be hard, but nothing's impossible with god by our sides. But we've gotta make an effort right?

Let's start by working hard for promos(:

Countdown to promos: 8 days
20 days of Ramadhan left.

When I'm all choked up and you're okay.
I'm falling to pieces.

Yet another one of your random dramas,uh?

2008-09-09T16:05:00.000-07:00

I promised Nicole something, that I'll be asleep by 23 hours tonight.

School's been exhausting me out. Been sleeping at 2 am, waking up at 4 am. What life is there to live you ask? I don't know.

You know what? I just backspaced the long post that I've written.

The only good thing about today is that Km told me mtv is giving out the scripts cd with their autograph(: That's a to die for good stuff yo! I'm so in love with every song in the album.
OhGod.

A huge grief mistake, that is all I have to say.
What a timing, what a timing, what a timing, what a timing, what a timing, what a timing! How SILLY of me.
):

Countdown to promos: 9 days
21 days of Ramadhan left.

Let's not let anyone bring me down.
Why bother?

hold your breath, and let it all out ?

2008-09-08T00:57:00.000-07:00

7 days of Ramadhan over. That's like a week, and that's like so sad cause its so fast. Slow down already. An even sadder fact: Holidays are bye bye ): I just feel like ponning all the way till promos. But no I can't. We're not done for maths yet.

Still got thaaaaaaaaat much things to do for revision. I'm falling behind. I've yet to even start for economics yet. No way am I gonna do good for promos ): OH WELL.

Today was a day well spent(not so much for revision though). I spent a jolly-good-4.5-hours @ the mosque today. Had quran recital session with mum and aunt. Mum and me were gugu-gaga when we heard that we had to read one by one. Should have seen how shiverish we were when our turn came. Still, i'm thankful that I was given this chance to experience it all. Funny yet refreshing.Had a lot to think about, but for a moment, it felt like I had nothing to worry about at all(:

I always loved the songs that tako's mum plays on the way to school. Thoose with little children singing. Its just too bad they're all christian songs. I've always wanted to have little childen songs for muslims. And today, I got it. Well, not exactly own it but yea, my aunt had the songs playing in her car. And one word, sweet(:

Had a rather long daze in the car on the way back home. It was like a walk down memory lane.
I remembered the times when i'll get down the bus and see that you're already waiting for me at the bus stop. I remembered how you'll have the "oh shiet.." grin when you forget to wear something on your pinkie and you see that I had mine on. I remembered the long bus rides that we had,the countless times I fell asleep while we're talking. I remembered having someone wait @ the bus stop each morning to walk to school together. Bus stops, wow.

Had a little tiff with dad just now. Was a little too stressed out over school work I guess. And it just pains me to see that my study room is in a total mess due to the painting. I didn't want the room painted, but oh well. Now its white, so empty. But things got on the brighter side after a while. Mum was sweet, helped me with the cleaning. And walaa, the rooms' neater than before(:

Countdown to promos: 10 days
22 days of Ramadhan left.

What am I s'posed to do when
the best part of me was always you?

sometimes, we only wish tears can bring us back to the past.

2008-09-07T06:22:00.000-07:00

6 days of ramadhan complete. Today's gonna be the 7th day already. Wow, a week just like that.

Truthfully, yesterday hadn't been too pleasant a day. It felt as though I was back to 28th December again, all over again. Like I was reverting to how I used to be, weak and weaker than ever.I remembered that very day, prolly will for the next 10000 years to come. How can I not remember that day? And yesterday I kinda got all of those pieces jumbled up over again. But alhamdulillah, I got over yesterday stronger than ever.

I've been thinking too much. I know it. My minds not set on the books but on something else. Photos, letters, memories, memories. I'm thinking of so many things I know I should have stopped thinking of 10000 years ago. But I just can't bring myself to, somehow. As said before, I tried and tried to walk away but I really just can't. Somehow, he either gets me right back into him. And it doesn't help with those countless times he came back but sadly, only to leave yet again. I don't blame him. Nobody's to blame. I blame myself though, for so many things I just couldn't explain to myself. Sometimes, one just chose not to learn from past mistakes don't they?

But on a lighter note, I had a nice talk with bestie Ben yesterday. Rather, it was this morning. Somehow, Ben never fails to make me think wisely. It was nice, how he tried to make me see things on the other side. And how he made an effort to make me open up and tell him what's wrong. I didn't tell him how upset I was yesterday though. Sometimes, things are better left unsaid, yes? Finally, a day in which I smiled myself to sleep. God is fair.

I received this vvvvvvv.long email from a good friend who's so very far away. First of all, I'd like to say thank you to this person. Its nice to even think that someone so far away actually bothered to sacrifice his sleep to write to me, just so he could let me know that he cares. Trust me, the email was vvvvvvvv.long! I spend about 30 minutes reading the whole thing. But it was totally worth it(: I'll talk more about it maybe some other time, when I 've totally think things over. But still, thank you thank you thank you.

(:

Countdown to promos: 11 days
23 days of Ramadhan left.

Sometimes, the first cut doesn't heal.

i've been dreaming a little too much, yes?

2008-09-06T01:49:00.000-07:00

5 days of fasting already. awwww, so fast. Saturday's here already): and before you know it, its gonna be Sunday soon. Oh well.

The weather has been very nice lately. Its been pouring a whole lot, good/bad? I don't know. But some people say that the rain brings us fortune/luck. Does it? Well, I sure hope so. Then we can all be blessed with a lot of luck for our promos, ugly promos.

Countdown to Promos: 12 days
Hmpigs to promos!

Accompanying mum now. Sew sew sew. I should be studying eh. Guess I'm too tired(excuses..) Oh and I accompanied dad to prayers today. Though it was a little crowded, I'm happy that I could experience it all once again. Its been a while since I last did. Its really nice, how I get to meet so many people who are so different from one another. Some are rather chatty while others just prefer to keep to themselves. Today, a grandmama spoke to me about her life. How she hasn't been going for prayers for the past few years because of her illness. And seeing how thankful and happy she was to be able to come this year, it just made me feel .. I don't know how to put it. But I'm glad I was able to share her cup of joy. Am so looking forward to more sessions!
(:

I don't feel like blogging suddenly. Oh well, may the love be with you(: Takecare loves.

24 days of ramadhan left.

and i'm still missing you.

buddhist monk means i love you.

2008-09-03T22:48:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was the 3rd fasting day. I don't know why but I just don't want this fasting month to end so soon.And thinking of how there's school next week followed by beloved promos the week after, I sure know that time will just really fly. Talking about promos, I'm quite happy that I've settled down to study now(like finally!) But I think I need to study way way wayyyyyy harder. go go fazee

Hmm. I'm really thankful for yesterday. I smiled pretty much more considering the times I actually did for the past few days. Studying @ je library with Km and NYC was a blast. Though we kind of played a little towards the end. HEHHHH.

My uncle picked me up from the library and home is the place to be. Its funny, the thoughts that I had while I was sitting down waiting for break-fast. I suddenly just couldn't imagine myself breaking fast without my family. Without the daily popiahs that I have(they're good stuff ity!) Without the exact taste of tea that I can never find outside. Without the warmth that a family can bring sitting down in a circle(my dining table's circular btw.) , just eating together. And my favourite, the Ya Rabb Song!

In the past, my aunt's family used to come daily to break fast at our house. So we had my aunt,uncle and his son. So there are 10 of us. I really missed that. Now there is only my other uncle. I remembered how we would have at least one praying session together, the whole lot of us. But now, we're all praying by ourselves.

I remembered how reluctant I used to be when dad wanted me to pray with him. Childish times I would say. This year, dad has yet to make any offer, like he knew I'd prefer doing it on my own. But somehow, deep down, I wanted him to ask me so badly. And I was so happy that he did for the first time this year yesterday. So it was me mum and dad. Am sure looking forward to more sessions together, insyaAllah(:

Yesterday made me realise something, and that is that we should savour the moments given to us and take every single oppurtunity that we are entitled to. And when we get the oppurtunity, we should make the best of it and only look back to smile and not regret. Cause happy times aren't exactly hard to find, they're always there. But if we choose not to savour this times, they may never come again.

But then again, what is life if its only filled with happiness?

Let's all just pray that we'll get out of every sad/(insert negativities here) a stronger person.
A much stronger one.

Countdown to promos: 14 days
26 days of ramadhan left.

must learn to be happy.

have i told you how cold it has been lately?

2008-09-02T13:56:00.000-07:00

The fasting month is here already. That's fast.

Well today's gonna be the third day and I'm still counting. I'm not exactly waiting for it to end either. I love ramadhan in so many ways but i'll definitely miss eating brownies @ mac.cafe and i'm sorry km, nicole and lj that I won't be joining you in the library.

Though it has been just 2 days of fasting completed, I feel like its been days already. As much as i'm trying to embrace the month, it started out quite sadly/roughly for me. I found out something I wished I never would have known. Truthfully, it hurts to see what's happening now. The thoughts that run through my mind everyday when I get remembered of what is happening. I think of the every possibilty that might happen, rather might already happen. And that alone can get me tearing the whole afternoon.

I'm lost. Sometimes, I only wish it hadn't happen. But its too late to wish now uh? I miss everything that was of the past. I miss the endless messages that we used to send each other, I miss the random calls that you gave me just to say that you miss me. I know ours was a story of the past but sometimes, I just wished you were here to go through the time with me. But that only makes me the most selfish person in the whole wide world. True?

Everyday, I wondered to myself if there comes another day where you'll love me again. And I don't want to comfort myself into believing this. Cause even though it was always the case last time, maybe this time, that girl feels a little something for you too. I know its coming. That day where I'll hear it from you. Or would you still remember me by then?

As I sat for morning sahur today, I missed something. And that was having you call after your daily morning sahur just to say good morning. ):

I'm trying and trying to walk away. I'll pray so hard everyday that I'll be strong. Cause there's no stopping you this time and I don't want to do that.Still, I thank god for every single minute of everything, past, present or future for I know that its what going to make me stronger at the end of the day.Hopefully, the next time I see you, I'll be stronger that I ever was before(InsyaAllah) .

I'm making this blog private for a little while, just to help me get past the time. If you're able to read this then I really hope whatever's that written would remain here and here only.

It ain't going away. or is it?

2008-08-31T08:22:00.000-07:00

Today was not just another day. I feel this step closer to my family. I really hope things will remain this way through Ramadhan. It'll make the whole process a whole lot easier. Currently waiting for abang to come home before we do some serious lifting * arms cries in pain *

Today was paint-the-house day(: Mummy is so in love with the white walls and ceilings. I don't know. It feels kind of empty to me. The cosy ambiance just ain't there no more): But oh well, as long as she likes it. Its really touching to see us working together, sitting down, just to talk or discuss about our plans. Though not all of us were there, it was still nice. And I got to see another side of my brother today. A pleasant side, spoken just like a brother i've always yearned to have.

Kakak is ultimate-happy-mode today. I would admit that its been hard for her the past 6 months or so I think. And today, I shared her joy when she told me the happening happenings in her life. She's not telling who though. Hmpigs! (:

And mum's making me sleep in brothers room from now on. And the thought just got me so thrilled. Back to the good old days. I remember thoose times vividly (considering my limited memory, guess how important those days were to me?) I've always loved those times, where me and my brother are like the bestest of friends. I'm missing the double-decker bed we once had. And I've always thought that i've lost that brother of mine in the recent years. But today has proven me wrong.

No, I'm not suffering from depression ( see Abi!). If there is one thing that keeps me going regardless of the challenges I face, its my family.
MumDadKakakAbangAdikBibik(:

While we were waiting for the paint to dry, I chilled in my brothers room for a while. I missed those times where i'd just get to watch him play his com/game. And then we'll catch up in a way. After so long, we finally had this talk again. I've realised how much goods i've overlooked for the past few years. Somehow, he never fails to understand me. He asked me something today that just got me tearing. Though I said it reluctantly, he's still the first one in the family to know. Sadly, I just spent the rest of the time ____ myself to sleep.

That's how it continued for the rest of the day. Ups and downs, I'm still grateful how we're becoming closer. Alhamdulillah(: I just hope that me shifting into my brother's room would be a great thing. And I sure hope he'll stop the puffing soon.

Countdown to promos: 2 weeks 3 days

Happy fasting people(:

And when I turn 94 , I think I'll m..... even more.

2008-08-29T15:32:00.000-07:00

Life's been tiring. Its starting to drain me out. The past 2 weeks wasn't a breeze.
The only happening thing that I remembered was :
1.First friendly match with IJ( HPNV! )
2. Bestie's surprise party/sleepover.

Countdown to promos: 2 weeks 4 days

Yucks. Promos is not cool at all. Neither are those people who go around saying I'll probably retain. What if it comes true? Go on and laugh. I'm pretty sure only Km, Nicole and Lj knows what promoting means to me, to them. Oh well.

*Backspaced 10000 times *

Oh yes, here's a shout out to my dearest abi whose probably lazing around after a hectic day of school in US. You know, when we met again @ Peeeeej, I always thought you're still the mischievous guy who would never stop irritating me until the day I cried during our p5 maths exam. HAHA! But you proved me wrong. Of course, there's still this child in you yo! But then, its nice to see how you're more sensitive and caring towards the people around you now:D And i'm really proud to be one of em'. When I received the email from you, I was touched. You're probably the furthest from me now and yet, you're making this effort. And that made me wanna cry.Sorry if I didn't talk much.I promise I'll tell you when the time comes alright. Thanks abi, you're really a great friend to have(:

We lost the match btw. But considering coach wasn't there, we were awesome. 2-1. That last goal was a close one. Plus, IJ's coach was awesome too. He wants a rematch after hari raya. And he was so shy when we wanted to shake his hand after the match! Oh and HPNVs came. Hahaha. Sadly, I couldn't join em for dinner. Sorry guys, some other time ok.

Rushed down to lakeside then. * Fast forward * Lighted the candles and sat on tas bed with the rest. Its damn funny how we were like " Sur ... " when chameleon came in instead of the camel. Should have seen how we all reacted, no kidding! Then finally B'dae girl entered her room and we had the honour of completing the previous " Sur... ". I felt damn happy then. You know why? Cause tas gave me a peck on the cheek. No, I'm straight. * I kissed a girl and I like it... * Glad you had fun. There were so many things I wanted to tell you, but just didn't get the chance to. After promos alright? Love you tas.

Oh well. Teacher's day celebration today. Rather ystd. I miss so many people now,especially Benjamin Koh with his retarded actions that made me laugh so hard @ al-azhaaaaar. Bry and me got irritated by his endless comments on our photos. Hahaha. And he insisted to help Km and Lj with the eyebrows. Oh well, you win some, you lose some. Nvm.

September holidays are here (:
So is Ramadhan (Well, not exactly here yet, coming vvvv soon)
I'm not exactly excited neither am I frowning against it.
Oh well, happy holidays people.

Its no longer about the what ifs anymore. Its more like waiting for reality to hit you. And I'm really scared now. Scared of everything thats gonna happen. As the days pass by, I keep telling myself that that day's coming, closer each day. I know somehow. I sense it. There's so many things I feel like saying , but I won't. One word, pointless. I feel so happy yet deep down,I know I'm sad too. Sometimes, I only wished you see all those times I teared/cried ever since that day. On the surface, you may get how I feel. But the true fact is that you'll never even guess how I truly feel deep down inside, like how I can't seem to figure you still.You're so different now, i'm not saying you're worst now. Just different.

When someone asked me how we were doing, the answer that I gave just made me realise something. Its hard to let go, but its even harder to move on. And I'm really hoping this year's Ramadhan would only get me stronger than before. Whether or not I'm gonna do any, thats within me.

Thought it sucks knowing things i'd rather not, i'm smiling.
And I know that you're v.happy now.
May you be happy, always.

How can I move on, when I'm still in love with you?

Let's get things straight now(:

2008-08-10T12:04:00.001-07:00

Before anything, I owe an update about cousin's wedding k.

You know what?
I'm gonna go on a hiatus(:

No blogging for a teeny while. I'm gonna replace the time with something else.

See, the smiley?
I have the sweetest A and B in the whole wide world(:
Go ah, go okay. Guess all you want.

Though what I heard from you earlier wasn't
the sweetest little thing that you could have said,
I thank you dear Allah for showing me that someone else cares.
And to that someone,
I will break the glass someday.
No, i'm not doing it to prove to anyone anything.
But for my happiness(:
Someday, I will.

But still, i'll miss you.
No, i'm not afraid to say this.
You takecare(:

Yay me(:
I know I can.
I know I will.
InsyaAllah.

Let

2008-08-10T12:04:00.000-07:00

Tired and uninspired ):

2008-08-07T11:08:00.000-07:00

Friends are sweet(:
They helped me to pick what I could eat.
Garlic Bread and Soup.

I love today's CIP.
I love yesterday's Hockey training.
Boys and girls first pitch training together.
Hockey players are the bomb[:

My stomach is dying.
And I've got no nuts idea why i'm still up.
livejournal's being a bitch.

Replies for tagboard, maybe later.
Lazy:/

I'll be strong for you.
Km, Nicole and Lj(:

I'm losing grip of everything.
Losing myself.
I've never felt so tired before.
I'm tired too hey.
School's draining me out.
Tummy makes things no better.
With hockey, it gets better.
With 3 girls, it gets better.
Thank god for that(:

I feel sick.
Physically/Mentally/Emotionally.
All of the above k.
I wanna go out and play.

I don't know what to do,
anymore.
Sometimes, I know
I let my feelings take control,
a lil too much?
And I'll vent it all out.
But sometimes, I wish you knew,
what really lies within me.
And that you'll understand me,
for me.
No need for explanations.

Fazee is sad):
Do you care now?

Cos' lately I've been tired and un-inspired))):

Now, look carefully.

2008-08-04T09:39:00.000-07:00

Saturday, Augustine's chalet.
It was nice, simply put.
I realised how much I miss having the two BK's around.
At first, there were only 5 of us.
B'dae boy, Km, Bel, Yaya.
Photo-taking session with Bel is loved(:
Then they left.
Ben came. Bry came!
Photo-taking session with B'dae boy.
Macbook's camera is the new love! (:
(Send me the photos lazy bum!)
We talked.
B'dae boy told me something, hais.
And I can't seem to forget what he said.
But on the lighter note, fun gossips with Ben.

But you failed to realise,
that even though letting go of the tight grip
of the first makes things feel easier,
it still leaves behind a mark.
The pain that only we feel.
That no one else knows.

Khan photoshoot on Sunday!
Lazy lazy lazy.

Its been 48 + hours since I opened up to anyone.
And it felt great to have someone listen.
Thank you(:
I hope you're better now dear.

After today, things got more blurred.
If you don't understand, too bad.

And it went on.
Why hold on?
When its clear now, that what others say are true after all.
I used to think that it doesnt matter what others say.
But now, it does matter.
For they see it in a way I never could.
Yesterday, today has proved to me.

The past promises you made.
I asked myself today.
Have you ever kept to any of it.
The only I could remember is that you'll wait.
And you sure did.

Someone told me.
If he's busy, can't he spare some time he has for me.
And if he could find the time for others who he claims is only his friends,
why can't he spare some for me, his so-called close/best friend?
Sometimes I wonder, are you really that busy.

And yet you told me you'll never leave me.
So much of putting my faith in you.
Tell me now, where do I put it,
em' faith, hopes, love.

You're nothing anymore, someday.

You weren't there for me.
Time after time.

I'll be waiting long time.

2008-07-28T05:16:00.001-07:00

Thanks a million babe(:

It was sweet to have someone to talk to,
especially so if that someone is you.
Mooooaks[:

Time after time.

Lying in my bed
I hear the clock tick and I think of you.
Turning in circles
Confusion is nothing new

Flash back to warm nights
Almost left behind
A suitcase of memories
Time after sometimes
You picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me
I can't hear what you've said.

And you say, go slow
I've fallen behind
The second hand unwinds.

If you're lost, you can look
And you will find me
Time after time.
If you fall, I will catch you,
I'll be waiting
Time after time.
If you fall, I will catch you
I will be waiting
Time after time.
Time after time.
After your picture fades
And darkness has turned to grey
Watching through windows
I'm wondering if you're okay.

And you say, go slow
I've fallen behind
The drum beats out of time

If you're lost, you can look
And you will find me
Time after time.
If you fall I will catch you
I'll be waiting
Time after time.
If you fall I will catch you
I'll be waiting
Time after time.
Time after time.

Time after time.
Time after time.

As the song goes ...

2008-07-27T11:53:00.000-07:00

I'm tired. Really tired.
I've yet to finish my homework.
Maths tutorials, tests coming up.
Oh give me a break.

I'm thinking whether I should drop the idea of school tm.
I just need one more day to catch up .
Whether its studying for tests, or whatever tutorials.
I really need time, a lot of time.

Countdown to Promos : 6 weeks PLUS

And the pressure's not helping.
No, my parents don't say things like
" You better do this that this that.. "
But I can feel it.
Mum's been emphasizing on the Uni stuffs again.
I don't blame her, which mum won't want at least one child into uni?
But its tougher than I thought it'll be.
And things aren't any better that I can't seem to sit down and study.

Parent-teacher's meeting was on Saturday.
Nothing much actually.
Just so as I do better for promos, i'm save.
But what if I don't?

I love the short little advices dad always gives after ptm.
And this time, his advice really hit me.
Maybe it was time I listen.
What maybe, it is time for me to go all out for myself.
My future.

Dad asked me something,
he left me with silence for a bit.
Oh well.

I MISS TASVITA KASSEY KALLEICHELVEN.
Awww, thanks babe for the talk on the phone.
Really helped boost up my spirit or whatever you call it.
Thanks for being honest about what you feel.
Appreciated(:
I'll stick to your advices,
at least give it a try.
Catch up soon.

Oh well.
Time after time.

My vey own forecast(:

2008-07-23T09:31:00.000-07:00

I remembered telling myself a few weeks back
that 23 July will be a happy day,
just cause the number kept striking me.
And guess what?

It was a nice day after all.
Surprisingly nice.

I love it when the day starts with thunders and lightnings.
We'll all have assembly at the hall then!
And it'll be not-so-sunny.
Nice weather, I like.

Though Econs wasn't that interesting today, Maths too.
I still managed to somehow pull through.
New topic for Maths! If only I did all my tutorials from the start,
Maths is so fun luh! [:

Chemistry was a phewwwwww.
Me and LJ were like omg, we didn't print out new notes.
So we were both busy crossing our fingers,
hoping that he won't have time to start the new topic.
And guess what? He didn't!
Mr Tongtongtong and his smile(spastic)
HAHAHA.

Ate Chocolate Muffin & Spaghetti!
Plus a whole lot of sandwiches from investiture.
Yummy yum! (:

Hockey hits after that.
I love the juggles!
KM should know why eh.
HAHAHA.
Hotsecret. At least better than your )&A)!
GO FIGURE.

Night studied with KM.
Fun to da core.
Did maths(:
Hahaha. Photo-ed with Sodi&Km.
FOR FOREVER FAT FRIENDS(:
More like Black is Fat eh!

Oh wow. What a day(:
EOM SUCKS!

2008-07-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

My current addiction now(:
Teuku Wisnu is hot!

Ohh, how many days already?

Wednesday training was cancelled.
But had the best times @ Tako's house ..
Doing WR eh! Hahaha.
I love the chocolate eclair
* yummy yums*

Hmm. Chocolate muffin is loved.
I'm seriously gettin addicted.
Hahaha. And it costs like only like $1.30
I'll eat it everyday. Lose weight!
Not.

More like the opposite eh.

Coach wants us big and strong.
But who says we have to be big to be strong right?

Tako came over today. Hahaha.
Hahaha. My auntie say we look alike.
Like sisters. Cheyhhh.
Hahaha.Had a great laugh at something.
She rocks!

Would have rocked more if she spoke less black-y and fatty.
Hmpigs! For a pig like you.
Pretty pig !

Today, I thought I'll try giving things a shot.
I thought maybe it was time.
But I didn't know it'll turn out this way.
I felt guilty, surprisingly.
Its funny, I should be excited.
But I couldn't kept thinking of _.
And I felt guilty, naturally.
Like _ were still there.
Oh man, maybe next time.

But Thank god I didn't.
(:

No chemistry(:

2008-07-15T20:42:00.000-07:00

Library fun without Chemistry tutorial!

Hahaha. Oh man, I should be ashamed(: But oh well.

What a short day luh.

Having assembly later. * YAWNS *

I don't wanna goooooooooooo.

Ohh, say Hello to LJ and Tako (:

* Waves *

Back to online shopping[:

And researching gp stuffs

Hahaha. Someone random is talking to me.

Once-upon-a-time, a long lost idol ...

Oh well, kills my boredom with no one online!

One day, two days, three days, four days,

close to eightdays now.

I can form my own 8days issue eh.

This sucks!

Oh well, let's laugh it all out.

What's faster than the speed of light?

2008-07-15T08:47:00.000-07:00

Got the answer yet?

What's faster than the speed of light?

The answer is ....
Putting on weight):

I've been feeling so FAT lately, must have been Tako Kisses, passing her fat disease to me eh.
Now, she's under my un-fat disease. Hmpfs! Hahaha.
Oh well, time to watch what I eat eh.
And no thanks to indigestion that cause things to be worst. Double hmpfs!
But oh well, Tako Kisses, please remember what our goal is, the one we have to achieve by the end of the year eh.
Hahaha. No more fat Macds. No more fat food.
Well, maybe chocolate muffins should be made an exception.
I want to lose weight. I want to be as light as I was at the beginning of the year.
Man, I miss that feeling! Hahaha. Coach is so going to kill me if she reads this, I'll probably die tm.She would keep asking me to eat more.
Oh well, I shall just eat all I want(:
NOT.

Anyway, had a lovely weekend.
With bonding of Ika's & Fazee's family(:
It was totally fun, with me and Ika wearing our Kindergarten teacher tops!
Hahaha. And trip to Mustafa to buy pillows and snacks were two-thumbs-up.
If only there were lesser people luh -.-

Then came Sunday.
Pw meeeeting with my group members.
Overall fun , but it would be a whole lot better/nicer/sweeter/kinder
if you you you * points to peeshant, chengcheng and tako kisses * ,
yes you three, didn't bully me la. Hmpfs! And we kept playing cs. Hahaha.
And see pee-shant, I killed more than one person okay! Hahaha. The highlight of the
day was of course the cam-whoring session that we(more like me and tako) had.
Simply love laptops with camera.
Fun like nobody's business, i promise(:
Ohh and cheng cheng said something like "Smell you soon ah"
Random or what.

Monday was bad.
No comments.

Tuesday got better.
I was Vale's lucky star(:
Cause I bought h20 at the vendi, and two h20 came out.
Lucky or lucky?

Ohh, talked to someone random in the library.
Nice catching up! Hahaha.
Damn funny I tell you. Hahaha.
"Why you so cool eh?"
Insiders joke! Tako should know(:

Peek-chas!

I said " I'm FAAAAT "
Who is smelly?

She's Fatimah, and i'm here rabbit(:My lovely Pw group, missing 2.(:

The sweetest shot of all(:

More pics later.

Now, guess what's slower than a turtle?

Losing weight):
Hmpfs!

Hot stuff(:

2008-07-12T11:16:00.000-07:00

He's hot hot hot(:
Spotted @ Idola Cilik Finals.
Oh whee, I loved today.
(Rather, yesterday)
Update soon.

PW meeting later.
I'm loving this song.

It goes out to you.
Cheer up Buddy.
(:

I've got Budda with two eeees..

2008-07-11T08:10:00.000-07:00

I have no idea how to break the news to anyone,
especially my dad.

B U D D A . E E
Well, happy/sad?
Idk.
I don't see the point in dwelling too much.
.. on stuffs anymore
At least I didn't get UUUUUUU right?
At least I didn't got so proud over a U.
Dissapointed, yes.
But then like..

Haiyo!
Wake up eh wake up.
A B B B B B C
I want to get this.
YEA YEA.
Maybe should use MrSmama's tactic. Hahaha. Oh well.
Promos in 10 weeks.Socks need some pulling up eh.
Work hard eh people.

Aches are back.
Thanks to conditioning on Weds.BUT, still love it.
NOT.
Hmmm. Coach said something.That I was very slow today.
This stinks! I'm fat. Can call me Fazee-Star*
Cos' I look no better than Patrick Star.
Oh well, more self-trains. Stickwork!

Ohh, and I talked to my ex-malay teacher!
Start gossiping like nobody's business.
And she's still so skinny!

Suddenly remembered the * anita sarawak * thingy Mr Tong did in Wed's tutorial.
Only Me, Km and Lj saw it. I can't stop laughing.

Ohhh, and the discovery of Mr Shmama mum was like HAHAHA.
Hahaha. Gossips! And his past experiences, A's for everything.Like except for econs.

And Mr EK finally came back today. He looks as though he hasn't eaten for 10 000 years.
I don't wanna disapoint him man): Looking @ how slowly he walked didn't make me feel any better. The guilt was there. Oh man, PW PW PW PW PW.

):

Sorry you,if what I told you made you upset.
I just didn't want to keep anything from you.
I should have, now to think of it.
I didnt mean to, please know that.
Sorry Tk.
Promise to cheeeer you up though.
Even if it means having castle day everyday!
Princess eh! Hmpfs!

Do I really have to get used to this?
Hopefully, the piling work will take things of my mind.

Does things really have to go back @ square one again?
Or is it me, just thinking too much .

School school school /:

2008-07-08T06:09:00.000-07:00

I'm having mixed feelings about school now.

Oh man, I totally am not in love with the relieve PE teacher eh!
He was like, attitude + nerdy = yucks!
And he looks a lot like D.
I think even D is better.
Ok, maybe not.
But then again, having him know my name was worst.
"Fazeelah, please face there here there."
My arms are breaking i tell you!
Booooooooooo):
I would say the last part playing "catching" around the track was scary.
The idea of him chasing the whole class is -.-
And we'll have another session come Thursday.
GREAT.

But on the brighter note, GP results was(:
A teeny bit dissapointed, but still.
It wasn't too bad(:

1/6 papers back.
Oh mannnnnn.
There's Maths tm.
How?
And heard 60 percent failures for H2 Cheeena studies.
Oh well.

Back to Econs essay given by Yun Nam Hair Care.
Hahaha. Insiders joke eh!
Me and Georgy were laughing away man.

Training tm!
Good/Bad?

Hello world(:

2008-07-05T06:58:00.000-07:00

Oh man, my "holidays" are gonna end soooooon ):

I don't hate school,
I just hate having to get down to business, study.
PLUS, mid year results.
What if I get u-grade for like everything?
( Well, except Malay maybe>.<)
Boohoo ):

Oh well, less playing more studying.
Hopefully I'll do well for sickening-promos.
And then i can take A's next year ..
and by December 2009,
I'll be freeeee(:
That is provided i am promoted eh!
Oh mannnnn):

Anywhats, at least I had the week do some refreshin'.
Hahaha. Oh man!
I'll miss shopping way too much.
All started on Monday, with takokisses.
Thanks eh, see now I'm like this!
Imagine spending like 4 hours in just one pathetic far east shopping eh?
But it was fun, ohhh.
Can't wait to collect our tops next week girl!
:DDDDDDDDD

Then off to meet Bff,BK(:
That idiot, made me wait eh.
Silly chameleon, didn't even recognise me luh]:
Jamaican eh! Thanks eh!
Hahaha. Dinner was loved.
The day was simply loved.
(:

Ohhhh.
Tuesday-Malay oral practice.
Wednesday-A level Malay Oral.
Thursday-PW workshop.
(More like reminiscence of pri. school days eh!)

& To my fave. clown,
Last long with you-know-who eh! :D
Love you many many(:

Thank you.
This week has been great.
I'm learning more and more each day.
Good/Bad, we learn from it.
And I'm more than happy.
Sweet/Bitter, I'll always remember.
You.

And I'll always try to keep to the promises I made.
Whether it has to do with you or not,
&
I hope you too.

Ohhhhhh. What exam?(:

2008-06-26T22:37:00.000-07:00

Ello people(:

Guess where am i @ now?

I'm in lovely Schoooooooooool(:

Why lovely? Idk.

Tsktsk.

Officially waiting for Km to finish her cheeena oral(:

She just left.

* prays hard her invigilators are nice people*

HAHAHA.

I can hear myself typing away.

The connection's a two thumbs up today!

So faaaaaaaaaaaaast yo(:

Ohh, and Say hello to Farhanah who's using the other com people!

Updates on Mid'years later }:

Tonight will be the night(:

2008-06-23T10:18:00.000-07:00

Time: 1.18 AM
What am i doing?
Study break! Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy(:

First of all, say many many thanks to Tako Kisses for the study date today(rather,yesterday).

It was the best damn thing luhhh(:

Although at times we sidetracked (Hehee), today was great.

But sorry girl if i got too caught up talking about something.

Its just its been a while since i told anyone anything.

And glad you made it through my life-stories.

And many many many thanks for the advices.

See, the thing i love about Tako.

Is her honesty.

The wonders of how she just tells me nothing but what she really feels and not try to come up with something else just so i feel better(:

And you've made me realise alot today.

* Sings A YAYA YA YAAA .. *

Inside joke eh ? :D

Look forward to more study dates.

Only this time, not a day before exams eh!

Ohhh. First paper later.

Please be Kind.

I'll always look up to you.

I've realised how selfish i was.

But then again, nothing's easy.

We live by the choice we make.

And so they say.

But you've made me realise,

that there are people worst off.

& That others are forced into situations

that never would we have once thought of.

And that there is always a way out.

For the key lies within what is here within.

Feelings can't be helped.

That was then.

Only losers give up on themselves right?

I need a moral boooooost(:

Sloooooooooooooowly, I will(:

2008-06-21T04:40:00.000-07:00

Hello fellow lovelies.
Well, guess what?
I'm feeling gay(:

I got a fair bit Lucky today.

My sister was simply sweet(She always is)
She was like close your eyes, then tadaaaaaa.
Anna Sui Mascara collection!
Cheer me up eh?(:

Left alone@ home with my super-bibik.
She was ultra-nice today.
Offered to buy me ice cream and stuff.
And she told me she wanted to start __
(Hahaha. Shall not say what uh)
So taught her and she just followed.
Simply adorable.
Bibik bibik(:

Hais. Just another 2 years i think?
Oh well.

And studying was super productive today(:
I managed to study in front of the tv.
And i got stuffs done!
Like ..... Maths!
All the way!

And then mama came home:D
With marks&spencer puffs(:
3 BOXES!

I can.
I can.
I can.

I won't quit trying.
Cause i won't let myself down.

InsyaAllah.

That's the way it gotta be.

2008-06-20T12:13:00.000-07:00

Its 0316 hours.
I just finished mugging maths.
So peaceful(:
I've still got like lorries to cover though:/

Unexplainable.
Its funny how each week brings new surprises,
rather, how each week differs so much from one another.
Worst still is that with each passing week,
it doesn't get any better.

But the fairy once said,
"the more bitter life gets,
the sweeter is its ending/."

For i still feel the pain,

each time i hear you name.
And i know for sure,
this will continue.
Until the day.

And when the day comes,
I'll walk out stronger.

But its tough, to find the courage.
To just carry on,
like we've never met before.

Dissapointed,
i truly am
Not in you, but in everything else

But will you just takecare?
I wish you happiness.

Chris brown is love<3

2008-06-18T19:33:00.001-07:00

You won't regret watching this(:

I love the part he raise the water that one,
so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet luh.

For my lovelies whom i miss so so much,
Tasvita Aisyah Chandini!
In love ehhhh?
* Points to first two especially *

Forever ever ever ever.
Its gonna be just Me You & the dancefloor.
(:

Nostalgic/.

2008-06-18T19:15:00.001-07:00

Yesterday's bbq was .__.
But the walk was never ending.
Hello? Last pit! Crazy people.
But oh well, interesting gossips with LJ(:
Passed some memorable place and told each other stories.
And i remembered the place where me and Bry
stopped for ice cream during yet another long walk last year.
Oh well, memories memories eh LJ?
Anw, the frogs stop making noise when i said stop!
And a frog jumped on my bare feet man):
It was disgusting!
Frogs are slimy.
Cats are no better.

* Screams , David Cook's on Mtv Trl now *

Walked out to find a cab.
I miss being pampered luh!
But anyhow, we managed to flag a cab.

Happy or sad?
You decide.

Nostalgic, yet it was all back then.

2008-06-18T19:15:00.000-07:00

Happy Daddy's Day((:

2008-06-15T10:46:00.000-07:00

The past few days has been a * buzzer Beeps*.

Oh well.

But thanks to the companion of my bubbly sister, i survived.

Study study study.

I'm gonna fail mid-years like i'm a pro at failing.

Go on, laugh @ me all you want.

And say that i should have chose a poly instead.

You know what, i don't care.

Have i been studying?

Yes.

Does it stay in my head?

* Buzzer Beeps for 9321465870 seconds*

But anywhats, today, rather yesterday has been great(:

I love father's day yaw<3

I love my dad.

Didnt really do much, just ate lunch.

Then to WCP.

Then Mac ice cream.

Then dinner.

I'm so gonna gain weight.

But oh well, i love the new ride thingy @ WCP.

Rather pricey, but oh well.
It was worth, if only i didnt have to carry another soul

who weighs less than 10kg less than me @ my back):

Hmpfs, tired seh!

I wish to take it again someday.

Peek-a-boo(:

Wanna ride?

Tataaaaaaaaa:D

Dad has been requesting for alot of hugs lately.

It feels awkward.

No, i don't hate it.

In fact, i love how we are now.

Its great seeing how he teases mum with her workload.

"Nak jadi orang kaya ke apaaaa...."

But there just seems to be something missing.

I dont wanna destroy the happiness.

I don't wanna destroy anything.

But its hard.

Especially when somethings feels so right but wrong,

at the same time.

Someday, we all have to tell it all.

The plain truth,whether we like it or not.

But why is it that the more we try to explain it,

the more they don't understand.

Let the sunshine save me.

An d let the rainbows witness it all.

For only they'll be the ears that'll listen,

Regardless.

Study Break(((((((((((((((((:

2008-06-12T01:15:00.000-07:00

This reminds me of Mao Zedong Poster somehow luh[:

My little study break now.
Oh man, think its too long though.
Caught up talking with clown):
OH MAN.
Econs is driving me mad, but i love it.
Maths is crazy.
Chemistry is a heart-breaker(as usual)
Maybe Cheena Studies will heal all wounds?
Yea right.

Tag replies(:
fazee<3laopo : Hey you. Thanks for the head uh. Lend me your brains now): IMY
fazee<3liyyeo: Meet up soon please:[[[[ Takecare rugger/loser.
fazee<3simin: Of course i remember you.Long time no see):
Awww, you takecare too.

Can we have more holidays please?
I'm lazy already.

For now i've realised. ):

2008-06-09T00:47:00.000-07:00

This is probably my last few posts before Mid Years.
Mid Years Mid Years Mid Years):
I need my motivation.
Nothing i've studied seems to be making its way to the brain.
Just wow.
2 weeks of holidays, just like that.

Oh well, study study study.
I miss tons of people now.
Tako Kisses Babe.
(I need our lil' basketball court talks badly)
Tasvita you clown.
):

But oh well, as someone told me,
Life's too short for dissapointments.

So i can't afford to dissapoint myself.
Must do well for midyears.
Books, here i come.
People, byebye.
):

This street's simply too narrow,
too narrow to return back to the story.
I'll stop making sense out of things.
For this feeling has lost its meaning.
Its not right anymore.

Close it all, the curtains and doors.
Windows or any entrance.
I don't want another minute of anything.
Though my cravings grow each day
Never will i repeat it again.
We've lost it.

My Heart aches):
Just that
It teared me apart.
Till this day, You left me thinking.
Why the hell you left for?
For you left without a reason
And each time i found a reason to hate.
I just couldn't.

For i'll bear no grudges.
I'm truly am happy, regardless.
I just wish i'm strong enough.
Oh forget it,
Bless my soul.

I'm left alone in the house; With half-filled memories.

" Say all I need, is the air I breathe and a place to rest my head."
I need a place to rest my head now):

My heads all fuzzzzzzzzzzzzzy (:

2008-06-05T10:16:00.000-07:00

Well well well.

HAHAHA, idk what i did that for(:

I'm officially doomedddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd for tm's training.
I owe coach an explanation for not attending Wednesday's training):
Hahaha. I didn't know there's training luhh.
See, communication is important. And that's how lost i am without
Laopo! TakoKisses!& M.I (This people apparently left me)
Hee. Two of the above were in camp while the last one is in cheeeeeeena.
Glad they're back now(:

Anw, can't believe how clumsy i am.
I THOUGHT NEXT WEEK WAS THE LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAY!
( Can you believe it? I've been stuck with this mindset for like, forever? )
& i started panicking and studied like HOHOHO.
Maybe that's a kick start.
I listened to news on Malaysia's oil price rises.
Rather, i was forced to watch it, thanks to my mummy.
ECONS EH? Hahaha, Oh Well.

No, i'm not a f.hornist(:
But then again,
i like(:
KM, CAN YOU TEACH ME?
(anw, hope you're boo boo's fine)

I have tons to say but i couldnt speak.
I'm left on a world of my own, no i don't get anything.
I'm happy but i'm sad too.
I love how things are now. sincerely do.
But something tells me its all so wrong.
Beautifully wrong?
But i aint letting my feelings take control.
This time, I'll let nature take its course.
I'll go with the flow
And let time do all the work, if there is any.
Cause in the end, there are a million things that should matter more for now.
But i'm grateful for what's happen.

Thank you Allah(:

ouchhhhhhhhhhhhhh):

2008-06-03T07:11:00.000-07:00

I didnt sleep well last night):
Had this terrible tummy ache. Mind you, i was stuck in the toilet for an hour?
And this time it hurts alot)))))))))))))): Grrr.
Slept @ 4.am and was awoken by my brother @ 6am?

Tummy still aching):
Fever made things worst):

Lucky thing my aunt came over (:
She cheered me up with her riddles yo!
And i was given princess treatment by my sweeeeet lil' sister(:
Aida came over yo(: For a lil' while.
But now that the tummy ache's gone, my backache is here.
And it hurts like to da core!

)))))))))))): Boohoo. I miss TakoKisses.
Wait till she hears that Botak replied and gave a comment!
Miss you luh.
Is there training tm anyone?

I hate the doctor. I ate an apple yesterday luh):
* Runs around in circles cause idw a visit to the doc's *
* ooooouuuuuuuuchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*
Back is aching like once again):

Shall lie down now./
TC people.

I didn't forget luhhhhhhhhhhhh):

2008-06-02T10:10:00.000-07:00

This wasnt meant to be posted here. But, just so someone knows that i still care...

Happy 18th B'dae Ben((((((((((((((:(See your handsome face up there?)
See, i remember okay . You idiot, how can you say i forget you already ????
))))))))))))): This is so unfair!
That thingy above was supposed to be printed for you luh.
I'm so dissapointed la BFF): You owe me big time!
Heee. Meet up sooooooooooooooon okay <3
Love you many (:

Have a splendid B'dae yo!

2008-06-01T09:45:00.000-07:00

Like there's nothing else to wish for(:

2008-05-31T18:20:00.000-07:00

Idk where to start(:

(:
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((((((((: I've got a flower!
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I love love love love Yesterday. (Every minute of it)
BBSS CONCERT BAND MOMENTS 2008(:
Simply Memorable:D Heeeeee.
I love my juniors man (:
They're so sweet yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaall <3 style="font-style: italic;"> miss them already luh):
But its okay, i'm sure the eeyore section will pretty much stay alive(:

Had some fun time while i was backstage.
Heee.Like looking @ Desmond dance (Trying to seduce HanWei) while the band was playing.
Haha, he really reminds us(Me&Bel) of Augustine. Hurhur.
Haha. Manage to talk about life to HW during the long "break" we had @backstage!
(Juniors, don't be jealous!) Haha.
He&his FanClub.
My juniors are the cutest people on earth!:D

Shahilla dear, you're really sweet.
Miss thoose wacky times we had.
Time to hit the books girl:D
Dont let me down!

JingHui dear, you're my little star!
Haha. Eeyores future is in your hands(:
I hope you wont let us down ah!

Mabel dear, stop thinking about J*****
You're going to take over soon.
I'm proud to see how far you have gone over the months.
Way to go girl :D

To Farhana&Rafidah dears, i dont really know you two that well yet.
But i do know that you are both very lovely and enthusiastic juniors.
Put those enthusiasm in your playing okay(:

Of course,Narita&Vanessa&Enrique&Agnes, you little four should be the people who should be the most-proud because of yesterday's success:D
Nice one lah!

My Lovely Eeyores(:

HanWei(:
(FanClub,don't jealous horr)

Tako-tako, TakoKisses(:

I love this photo. Bel looks pretty(:
Hand is KitMan's!

Ngiamster(:
*Puts on goggles*

She's like "Oh My God, Nerd"

This shorty will be missed):

My Fave Pic of the day.
Lewis Senior!

Loooook Mama, another flower for me!
:D

Didn't get to take picture with the p************?Hmpfs!
Oh Well, enjoyed myself many many (:
Here's the song I was talking about.
Toodles!:DD

It made my day.
It surprises me how you never fail to understand me luh[:
I'll learn slowly, it takes time.
Though ours were of the past, i still love them.
Cause they're apart of my memories.
I'll never forget you, never will.
Don't worry, Fazee's gonna be strong.
Thanks for calling(:

And when i turn 94, I think i'll miss you even More): One day at a time.

I still miss you.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

Care to help?

2008-05-30T09:05:00.001-07:00

I was late for econs lecture today luh):
All cause i forgot my thumbdrive, had to u-turn and take it.
But but but, bus ride to school was (:

Got back Econs test.
I failed by 1 mark. But i was quite happy luh(:
Considering that i didnt attempt the last question that carries 8 marks, i think it wasnt too bad :D
"Just have to learn to manage my time wisely" says Ms Tan[:
Oh wells.Break time was funny luh.
TakoKisses and me were like looking @ the m*x** magazine luh .
No no , don't get us wrong please. Just someone we know as cover girl.
Haha. And the silliest thing was like we were lifting the magazine so high up that some guys actually saw and * droooooooooooooooooooools *
HAHAHA.

Emm. Rushed back home with Farhanah & Saliva(:
Heee. The cooking sessions are loved girls!
Haha. We were practically having rush hour 89023901 back @ my house.
OH! And Ger joined us soon after. Haha. Touch up the slideshow.
And cabbed down to schooooooooooooooooooooooool(:
I love the camwhores session we had in LT1 man:D
Hahaa. Its empty, so we had no better things to do.
Oh well, hope seniors had fun(:

Cant wait to see my eeyores! :D
I MISS THEM ALREADY):
Hoping the HPNV can come luhhhh.
Then there's free eye-wash for me and the girls:D
Oh well.

Phew, one left to go.
Hoping tomorrow will be even better(:

Mood is Bad now))))))))))):
Just frustrating man.
My eyes are bloodshot. I'm suffering):
GRRRRRRRRRR. Its painful luh.
I can't open it man. Yet i dont wanna sleep.
Hais. I really need my break soon):

Puts your hands way up high(:

2008-05-29T07:54:00.000-07:00

I've been wanting to blog the past few days. But something just stopped me from doing so.
Idk why :/

Well, this week's almost coming to its end. Awwwww):
Haha. I have no idea why that reaction. Probably cause it means 1 week of "holiday" gone, just like that. And have i sat down to study?

NO! )))))))):
What am i doing?
Idk. Grrrrrrrrr, this is so frustrating.
But ya know what? With some obstacle gone, i can finally study in peace:D
No worries, i shall start studying on Sunday and its gonna be full engine then.
Failing to do so would mean no Beaching cause people who fail their midyears can't go to the beach, right LeeJing? Awwww, i miss LJ like suddenly):

I'm missing alot of people now):
Top on my list would of course be a clown by the name of Tasvita <3 ):
Oh wow, my high mood has just flunked): Why now?

Nvm, let's keep moving.
Just a few minutes back ,
I was excited about the farewell party.
I was excited about Saturday's concert.
Oh well, i'm sure hoping we have a jolly good time tm.
))):

Ohh! I was excited to post about this just now.
But oh well. Went out with dearest pw leader, MrWC.
Celebrated our 2nd draft for GPP which was a two thumbs up!:D
Haha. It wasnt exactly planned, we walked around talking about some important stuffs.
I'm all confused now. But i do hope what i'm hearing aint true. Oh well, as the story goes.
ANW, he treated me to waffles luh (:
Yay! Hope pw will turn out fine though:/

And I was excited to announce that we found his profile!
OMG. Ultimate hotness(:
See, I told you guys MrHahaha is cuter than Botak with the gorgeous eyes.
Hahhhh!

)):

))))))))))))))))):
Urgh, i want to go back to my high mood now.
This sucks!

I need some cheering up yawwwwwwwww.
Maybe a mood-lift will be sweet.
Lets pray for a miracle!

Cause you know in my heart babe . D'you?

2008-05-24T18:41:00.000-07:00

Thoughts of the day: Sometimes, the people who understands us most are those who we take for granted.

Today was suppose to be a good day. Emphasis on the word Suppose.

Well, let's go back to Thursday. Ok, i have nothing to talk about actually.
Friday was my first ever major exam in PJC(:
GP Paper. I had those butterflies in my stomach things again.
Nevertheless, i hope i pulled through.

Let's see. Went back to Batok to take our o-level certs(:
But boohoo, it had some problems.
But on the brighter side, we get to eat the yummy stall9 food again(:
Ultraaaaaaaaaaaaaa cheap i tell you :D
Went back with Lj, TakoKisses&YayaBoy, Sodi&WeeChenggg btw.

Juniors were sweeeeeeeeeeet { Well, most }
Came up to say hi :D
Well, had a long talk with one of them. Gosh, i really miss thoose days man.
Worrying for PTM. In fact, i don't wanna remember last year's ptm:/
Maybe i dont wanna remember anything):
And they're sweeeeeeeet(: Gossiping was fun of course.
But yea, though some questions were very ouchieeeeeeeees, its really sweet of them.
Thanks to N&friends(:
Like as if you read my blog ah!
Study hard for o levels people(:

And so Saturday was spent first in school and then in BBSS.
Concert is coming. So is the farewell party):
So many things luhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
MID YEARS ARE COMING):
Mummy was nice, she always is [:
Bought me some new goodies YAY!

Well, i thought today was going to be (((((((:
Cause it's family day@ sentosa.
But it wasnt exactly the best.
Had a horrible nightmare of being chased by a pontianak):
And i helped mum with the sandwiches (:
But unfortunately rushed by some people who didnt bother to tell me when they were done using the bathroom):
Nice sun, sand.
Had fun times laughing over some idol contestants. HURHUR.
Or the times we were so angry with this boy * Macam nak kena Smack i tell you*
Fireworks are loved(:
Pimples are big and fugly): I'm stressed

Its just with that phone call made, it changed everything.
I wasn't at the best of place. It wasn't the best of times either.
I realise how fragile i really am.
I thought i'm stronger now.
But today proved to me that it was other wise.
And so the story goes. I told myself that.
I'm alone now. I really am on my own.

To my dearest one, I hope you're better now.
Its hard but give things time. Cause time is an evil factor):
I really really do love you and i miss your fat smile now ):
SOME PEOPLE REALLY DESERVE A KICK IN THE BUTT!

I tried closing my eyes, to just cut myself from the realities of life.
But as i heard how others reacted to the fireworks, i felt lost.
With another blink of the eye, i saw you. Even if it was for one eight of a second.
It felt like a minute. From the time we hanged our legs over the bridge, to the time when we sat facing one another. And the face that you gave when i told you that i was ready. How we looked into each others eyes determined to overcome anything that was going to stop us. Nothing at that time seem impossible.
But now, everything does.

Look what i've gotten myself into this time.
Its the opposite now.
And boy, you don't know what i'm going through.
You never will know.

& no matter how hard i tried to convince myself otherwise,
i know that you'll always be my baby/.
There'll be no other one like you.

Papa looooooooooooooook (: I've got a medal!

2008-05-21T09:20:00.000-07:00

Thoughts of the day: Its tough when things don't happen the way we want it to be, but its tougher if we choose to not accept it and move on. Oh well /:

An enjoyable day, that was today(:
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! (:
Guess what? We woooooonnn!
Haha. 2nd .. RUNNER UP! Haha
( Which means 3rd la bronzey bronze for thoose who dont get it)
Hahaaaa. And we thought we would have last-ed it. Hahaha.
Great achievement made, i feel .
I ran passed the Keller House j2 girl to get 2nd Postition okay(:
Was the third runner. Hahaa. I dont regret a single bit of it at all, and i do hope that TakoKisses don't regret too. Heee, sorry luh):
Brenda+KitMan+Fazee+Serene = Loveeeeeeeeeeee

Hahaa. And i'm simply happy by some other things too(:
TakoKisses, dont worry girl :D
So touched that you wanted to save the message luh (: Love You
(Eh YahYah Boy, beat that ah)

Hahaa. Goal-Keeper-ing after sports day !
Hahaaa. I was trained by my new fried YY(:
He's so patient and funny luh[: Hahaaa.
& I love love love running with the goalie kits on.
Its just i feel like a big big big TRANSFORMER(:
Hahaa And i believe i can build more muscles by running with em'./
Haha. To be or not to be?

Hahaha. Overall, today is really nice(:
(Okaye, except for the fact that tons tons of workload EOM!)
And i've not felt this happy for so long.

Haha. Simply love the talks i had with some people today.
BubbleTea-ing was nice too.
We really deserve a pat on the back yea *
Oh. Whining (KM, you get what i mean(: ) was best (:
Hahaaa. My new goal for the time-being (:
Hahaa. Yea right. It should be to mug hard for MIDYEARS!

Alhamdulillah is the only words that can express my fellings right now.
Thank you dear god, for standing by me.
Its like you knew that i really needed this one.

Wish you were here to enjoy this moment with me.
I always thought every moment like this would be celebrated with you.
But i guess its not up to us to decide no more.
For it is him who decides , only him
Well at least i'm not a loner.
but Does wishing still counts?

I've been tagged (((((((((((:

2008-05-19T00:20:00.001-07:00

Haha. My first time doing such thingys.
Blame it on Aida.

Here goes nothing:

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

Questions:
1. What disappoints you the most?
Betrayals ))))))):

2. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
I'll go around and around the world till i become so home-sick and then i'll get myself back home(:

3. What's your favorite thing to do?
This may sound funny, but i love talking about life(:

4. Do you think money can buy happiness?
An obvious no.
But it does bring lots of joy especially when i'm in shopping mood[:

5. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
That i'll have a billion wishes. This way, all my dreams can come true!

6. Do you believe you can survive without money?
Hell no! ]]]]]]]]]]]:

7. What's the most regretful thing that you've done before?
Everything that are the reasons behind my tragic life now.

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Shop-like-mad(: & Ofcourse, share the joy with the less fortunate.

9. What is the most embarrassing thing that happened to you recently?
Having HPNV hotties watch me play as goalie! ))):

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
She's got the brain/She's Aj's VC(:/ She's one hot mama!

11. What makes you happy?
Love was what kept me happy(:

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
Those who make others CRY):

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
I'll be the big boss and you'll be my workers:D
Gee, must be dreaming.

14. If you have the chance, what superhero would you want to be.
Hulkkkkkkkkkkkk :D * Roaaaaaaars*

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Family.

16. What do you do when you're alone?
Think a whole big fat chunk about my future/past.

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
Short-fuse))))))))):

18. If you could turn back time, which period would you like to return to?
When i was in secondary school?

19. What would you do if somebody asks for your number?
HAHAHA. I would get the person's no. And then i'll either forget or i can't be bothered.

20. How 'bad' do you consider yourself as a girlfriend? /10
4. I'm a sub-pass):

Who should do this:
1.KitMan
2.Annabel

I can't be bothered to think of ten people.

Why why oh why ? (((((((((((((:

2008-05-18T10:17:00.000-07:00

I woke up @ 5.50 am today.
Bathe blablabla, did whatever was necessary before i met TakoKissses(:
Heeeee. Took a bus ride to Bel's house.
We were so quiet @ the bus stop.
That was until we saw the two birds who drank water & shit.
Hahaha. It was like systematic luhh [:

Reached Hockey Village @ about 8.00
Omg. What a crowd. Haha.
I was hit at a super not-a-place-to-hit by some Mina luh):
Hmpfffffffffs!
I played goalie for the last match.
It was fun : DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
But i made a fool of myself infront of the ...
HPNV(:
Hahaa. Super friendly people(with super nice eyes) who suddenly came to support us
(They should have come earlier la, when i wasnt playing goalie)
Ohh. And their coach was nice, he thought me some goalie skills(:
Hahaa.
And they stayed to watch our match(Which was cancelled -.-''')
And we talked after that.
Hahaa. And silly me, i saw them @ jp but i didnt to tell the rest.
So when i suddenly remembered that i saw them, Hannah Montana got so excited.
Hahaaa. Not only her ah, TakoKisses*eheeeeems*, Laopo also! Even Joline.
See, i'm not the only one luhh (:
So there was the blue jacket guy who held the ladder, MrNiceEyes who was no.13 and the volleyball look a like. Hahaa. And guess what?
We actually rounded the whole of JP(:
Joline, why you never accept la ): Hahaha.

Anw, that sure manage to cheer me up.
It was a tiring day, filled with flashbacks.
Lucky my dearest clown was there for me.
Thanks for talking to me over the phone (:
& I really do miss you luh [[[[[[[[[:
Let's meet during the hols okay <3
Love you(:

Another day, yet i'm not any better.
But don't worry, i will be (:
One day:/

what more can i say? ))))))))))))):

2008-05-16T09:09:00.000-07:00

Today stinks!
Smelly stuffs):

Here's a list of the everything that made me cry(Well, felt like.)
1. I was chased by a dog(with a stupid bell) in the morning.
2. Flung GPP))))): There goes A for pw man): Have to re-do!
3. I was frightened by the cat @ carpark.
4.I wore white fbt's and i dirtied it, seriously.

But here's a thing that made me smile,
that the PJHOCKEY shirt was a hit(:
The guys said it was nice too okay <3
Cheers to Laopo for the designinggggggggggggggg(:
& Cheers to Tako kisses for getting that man!

Haha. Speaking of TakoKisses, the past few days had been like aeroplanes.
Flying up high before landing back to reality. Its funny how some people always put others before self. I'm not saying its bad, it isn't really.But it would be nice to think of ourselves, what is it we really want and is it worth giving it to others.
Sometimes i wish that my world would only revolve around myself. Around the people i love. Away from thoose who has somehow managed to bring me down, in one way or another.
But sadly, the world isnt all about me. Neither is it all about you.
Full of surprises.

But no one likes to be away from the ones they were once close to. Not even me. And yes we worry that this would one day come. Yes, at certain situations, its inevitable. But that just goes to show how strong our friendship really is. Let's not let this come between us, whatever it is.
Its a challenge, one we must face.

Suddenly thought of the talk i had with Tako kisses @ patio's swing on Monday.
Life's never meant to be easy is it?
Just when you wish that life would be made easier, its made worst off.
Just when you feel that this could take your mind off things, you lose it.
You lose everything. You lose it all.
With no one but yourself.
Yet we ask ourselves so many questions.

It all happened in a day.
It all just did.

Today was mean)):
It really was.

Yet, the worst was what i had in my mind when i woke up):
Shiet it, gravity's pulling me down again):

i'm gonna do all i can this time * (:

2008-05-13T04:47:00.000-07:00

Thoughts of the day: Words wont bring us down (i hope)

Hahaa. If you don't understand, forget it.
Let's start.

Monday was a very tragic day for me):
You know i hate it when i forget things, i really do.
I'm just bad at remembering things, take it that way.
So sad luhhhhhhhhhh )):
And i totally forget that MrThumb finished Lecture on Chap9.
And tutorial 9 just * poooooooooofs* out of my mind.
And i did tutorial 7&8):
& He had to sent the whole bunch of us out.
Only four people left in class.
Idk why but it just got me crazy thinking how i could forget.
And i didn't want to make MrThumb angry luhhh.
He just reminds me of my primary school super-nice maths tutor:D
And we were all invited to sit on the floor @ the back of the classroom.

And there was this time when he walked in front of the whole bunch of us.
Then he suddenly said,
"Oooi! What are you doing..(There was a short pause) I talking to the wall is it(He shouted okaee): )?"
And i looked up and realised he was staring @ me.
I thought he was talking to Nicole.
So i told him i was trying the out the sum la)))))))):
And he checked my work and asked me to move on.
Suspense only): Hmpfs!

Hmm. Self-training was alright(:
* HITS * session are loved.
Hahaaa. Play hard whack hard ah[:
Stayed behind with TakoKisses! & Farhanah(With the H)
Haha. Did more hits.
Blablabla :/

Nicole's Birthday today(:(Ps:She loves red too!)
Mini celebration during Econs Tutorial.
Discovering a nicer side to someone[:
Competitive swimmer yo'all(:
Hmm.
Chilled @ swingswing with takokisses while waiting for the other.
Nice talk there. Thanks for listening to my oh-so-tragic life stories dear:D
Hahaa. I'm happy, at least someone understands what i'm going through(:
And so that someone by the name of TakoKisses is Loved <3
Ohh! Can't wait for our pre-prom date (Which is in 10 000 years ...)
Hahaa[: & Don't worry, we'll fix out something and we shall stay together okay!
( You should know what i'm talking about)
& We finally submitted our ex-co form.

IDK . I seriously don't know.
No use being all excited when you realise that you won't be sharing the joy with *
No point.

GPP is urggggggggggh):
Econs test is a must pass/:
Life is TRAGIC, for now luhhh.

Yea, words won't bring me down.
But yours did. Your actions did.
Your everything did )))):
I need my self-esteem booooooooooster !

I miss desperate housewives marathon-ing already *****
Off to my mug mugs now ): Hais

tako kisses((((((((((((((:

2008-05-09T08:29:00.001-07:00

Thoughts of the day: Make the most of everyday, cause if tomorrow never comes . ..

Hahaaa. Today started out awesomely.
I just couldnt stop smiling(:
Hmm. Celebrated WeeCheng's B'dae today!
Alaaaaa, another one who's already 17(:
Haha. Gave him the elmo helium balloon. Hmpfs!
You weren't supposed to put it in a plastic bag luh):
Hahaa. I ate the chicken mayo with rice today!
Nice yummy yums!

Even though i finished my malay project, i totally forget about the composition luhh.
And i mean totally forget)))): Memory space= As big as a toy whiteboard.
I think its tons smaller now. Hmppppppppppfs!

Training was fun, mainly did the hits.
And guess what, little ms clumsy scraped her hand against the basketball court floor luh.
And its painful, especially when it comes in contact with h20!
But then again, yet another memorable booboo(:
My cookie is in the process of healing.
Its fading off now(:
Yay! Hahaaaaaaaaaaa.
Hockey tee finally settled!
Yay to us.
Ohh. Km is called takokisses from now on(:
Haha.
Better show me the video luhh.

I'm tired.
I wanna mug tm & get my stationary man :/
Idk, should i ask?
Maybe not.
Tako kisses, i miss you already (: